LettersFromMyHeart

what the pig?

2009-12-11T16:10:00.000-08:00

no, im not dead YET just way to dead?
named it, HALF WAY DEADING.

so yeah, i ve declared my personal hols since after exam xP
NAHH i wont be back GRSS!

erm let see, er 'fungus' growing on my body? ==
just like what happened to the people around me?

LOL
but anyway somehow i enjoy this 'deading' mode? WHAT THE PIG?@@

and yeah this hols er somehow NO INCOME ?
aka no work =D
wahahahahahahahahahaha my mum do feel happy bout this i guessed?
and me, i feel numb?LOL i feel damn relaxing yet frustrating? >.< moneyyyyyyyyyy ="=" short="=" shopaholic ="=" u ="=">.< gone ="D" d ="D">.<

hmm,
hey i miss lele( my nephew) so much ==
been quite a long time since our last met=(
hmm
xiaogu miss u =(
you are damn naughty but i still love you to choco =D

and yeah,
* love without talking? *
well,
smiley, *smiles* =)
heart gone skittles , i dont get why?
when i listen when i tell?

elmo shoo shoo,
spongebob come come =D

ahah,
this all for the moment,
like what i've said, dont expect any event posts from me, because here is just bout expression of mine ? =P

toodlees =)

wonder if u get this?

2009-11-11T22:19:00.000-08:00

heheh.

2009-09-04T05:56:00.000-07:00

http://evontyw.blogspot.com

changed,
ended.

=)

weaker.

2009-08-28T02:40:00.000-07:00

我不是故意的。
我不想这样的。
I dont wish to be like this..not being emo,or maybe yes. Im avoiding? Or im dealing with myself? I dont wish because of my 'emo-ness',people around me get hurt. I just dont feel like smiling. I just dont feel like talking. i just dont feel anything goes right. I ..m.. Tired. Tired of being a weaker,a looser. I know, i can share with someone or anyone, but i simply chose silence is golden. And i can say no words at all. Afterall, frustrating is what i..undergo.

emotions

2009-08-27T09:46:00.000-07:00

# the 21 days.

its sucks when im still counting.
i dont feel like counting anymore, but i will still.

i dont make promises,
and now..
i promise myself this and that.

hell yeah hard pulling off myself from staying in the past but however and whatever i just have to.

the first time,
i coudnt believe that..i lied to myself that that wasnt u.

the second time,
the same venue,
i have to believe in myself i can get out from the past and live my life.
well,
its not as easy as what u thought or.. * easier said than done*
but im seriousoly trying.

if u see me suddenly smile and fake my smile or whatsoever dabian,
please
1. care not me.
2. stop me from smiling.
3. ...

hmm.
i pretended nothing happened,
but hell yeah,
it just happened, couldnt been denied!
its a simple thing and yeah m complicating it.

i know i need time.
but i dont wanna turn this reason into excuse.

i promise myself that HEY, I WILL LIVE MY LIFE AND i seriously wish u all the best and happiness.

i dont blame and have no right to do so.
but please,
be happy always.

its so silly for me to say ..
erm.
the words eg wish u happiness, bless u guys etc.
but well, maybe i might dont fully mean it but at least .. i meant it much little bits.

u have ur life to move on,
so do i.
i can=)

although sometimes i still have to deal with myself.
the tears, emotions and so on...
but hey, i dont feel like being a weaker.

im still learning,
to not be a weaker.

not only me who face this i knew,
but i just never expected that ..this is feelings , emotions, things etc..

well,
cheers!

toodles!

im alive.

2009-08-27T08:30:00.000-07:00

hahah!!-__-

i dont feel like saying sorry for not updating hahah==

so no sorry. i dont feel anyhow sorry.

i am much more good from the bads, i am much bit from the goods.

i am counted .. fine.

well,

everything is sure to pass away,

everyone is going their own way.

it doesnt matter whether u can bear to accept it or not,

it just gonna *poof* gone one day.

hey !

im not ElMO~

just say whatever dabian i wanna puke out~

heheh.

people out their,

live ur life!

remember,

u have ur life to live!

ohya!

pay me a visit at the spring this saturday and sunday.

find me for the digi insurance thing, ok?

2009-08-12T04:03:00.001-07:00

A N S W E R - T R U T H F U L L Y

(nahh)

1. Do you like anyone?

yes!

2. Do they know it?

might yes might not?

3. Simple or complicated?

can be simple yet..complicated.

IN - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U

4. Bought something:

yeah?food

5. Gotten sick?

nope^^

6. Been hugged?

yes.

7. Felt stupid?

for?yes

8. Talked to an ex

yes

9. Missed someone

miss someone

10. Failed a test

all?grr

11. Danced

no more~ *dead meat* u causing me to recall~ grr

12. Gotten your hair cut?

should i keep?

13. Lied

yes!

U N I Q U E

14. Nervous habits?

yes!(hey kee fung,during oral, i was nervous too and..that is sooo *dead meat*

15. Are you double jointed?

ar?

16. Can you roll your tongue?

i can!

17. Can you raise one eyebrow?

i cant!

18. Can you cross your eyes?

juling? nope!

19. Do you make your bed daily?

no?

20. Do you think you are unique?

i am? hahaha

H A V E - Y O U - E V E R'S

21. Said "I Love you"

yes.

22. Given money to a homeless person

if he os she is homeless, yes.

23. Smoked?

nope

24. Waited all night for a phone call?

stupidly yes and not again

25. Snuck out?

erm...?

26. Sat and looked at the stars?

yeah,in car.

M A N N E R S

27. Do you swear/curse?

not really

28. Do you ever spit?

not anywhere k? i dislike that *ew*

29. You cook your own food?

i 'do'

30. You do your own chores?

not all the time

31. You like beef jerky?

ar ar?

32. You're happy with your life?

why not?

33. You own a dog?

nope, but wish to have one. golden retriever ..that will not poo,pee so on=_=

34. You spend your money wisely?

SERIOUSLY NOT!

35. Do you like to swim?

like but i dont know how to swim. grr

36. When you get bored do you call a friend?

always and thats why i spent aloads..but recently no more

D O - Y O U - P R E F E R'S

37. Flowers or angels?

flowers? and angels? both

38. Gray or black?

black

39. Color or black and white photos?

depends..recently black and white

40. Lust or love?

love

41. Sunrise or sunset?

sunset?

42. M&Ms or Skittles?

M & Ms

43. Staying up late or waking up early?

Staying up late ofcourse==

44.Being hot or cold?

cold!

45. Winter or Fall?

winter~

46. Left or right?

right

47. Having 10 acquaintances or 2 best friends?

acquaintances? best friends..hmm

48. Sunshine or rain?

rainnnn!!!!

M O R E-H A V E-Y O U-E V E R'S

49. Been Dumped?

Yes

50. Stolen money from a friend?

Nope

51. Been in a fist fight?

nope?

52.Snuck out of your house?

Nope

53. Had a crush on a teacher?

Nope

54. Seen someone die?

no ey?

55. Been on an airplane?

Yes

56. Slept all day?

12-15 hours?

57. Missed someone so much it hurt?

yes

58. Fallen asleep during school?

hahah

59. Been lonely?

yeah

60. Cheated in a game?

Yes?

61.Been to the ER?

ha?

62. Been in a car accident?

ya==

63. Had detention?

yeah

64. Missed your first love?

not really,nope.

65. Cried yourself to sleep?

yeah

66. Sung in the shower?

yes

67. Kissed a complete stranger?

Nope

68. Laughed so hard you cried?

yeah

69. Cheated on a bf/gf?

yeah but i have rather chose to keep it away from him than to cheat

70. Regretted hurting someone?

nope?

71. Regretted loving someone?

nope if i do then its not love

nahhh..kee fung! done the tag~ wellll. its LONG!

recently.

2009-07-26T03:43:00.000-07:00

aint in the mood to be in crowded.

and there is only one person i would like to be with.

thanks for everything.

cherish=]

i seriously..erm.

*etwtbwkc*

recently.

2009-07-15T18:59:00.000-07:00

* been wearing jelly's 0 degree spec aka my spec now. ( school dayS & spring & fun fair )

* 175 degree fish spa freak me out. ( went twice )

* good girl ALMOST turned wild. ( hehehe )

* aloevera peng is simply tasty. ( m2 kopitiam )

* moneyy moneyy what i need. ( 17- 19 july Digi ) - the details i dont know yet -__-

* jogging is not joking. ( taman rimba @ 15 july ) - 1.6km x 2,1km~

* sometimes things just dont get to be the way i want it to be. ( and i am to the stage fully-cold- ed )

* dont get what does this all meant? ( wildddddd thoughts =x )

* i should get my nerve clear so the impulse will be clear so my brain wont received wrong imformation and my body wont wrong react~ =_=

* i just wish to be the one and only. ( is it that hard? )

hmm. yesterday today and tomorrow will be my holidays. ( grss's sport days ).
when i am free, i start to think, uneeded stuff occured ( feelings ), wrinkles appeared too!
sienz~
i hope i do get the meaning of the quote, life is too short, be cherish!
i should stop thinking to this and that way.
man~ just enjoy ur life!

hmm

2009-07-06T08:28:00.000-07:00

* beautiful misunderstanding *

=)

2009-07-01T18:48:00.001-07:00

yuuuhuuu~

haha.

absent.

and in few hours wil be off to Damai with eve, laola, cherry, rosemary, timomud, ivy polar~

suprisingly mum allowed.

to the rest,

surprise isnt it?

hahah.

well,

daytrip.

we take shuttle to decrease mum's worries=)

gratitude=)

2009-06-28T15:37:00.000-07:00

thanks lyn yiiyii aka moo.

thanks sharon aka monkey laopo.

thanks jeff aka mr sorry.

without u all advices/ accompanion,
i know i wont be this strong=)

* dont live in the past.
let it be a past.

everyone has their own prince/ princess.

cheer!
S M I L E =D

recently, they support me to get through many nights and dreams.
i know that let begone be begone.
but somtimes,
just hard to deal with it.
i scared of feelings.
feelings turn me into a fool.
play on me so on..

i dont want to be such a weaker=)

thanks all,
ur concern is appreciated!

its now 643am,
i should go~
else i will be late,ow okay, i am late already=X

S M I L E !

keep my heart.

2009-06-27T08:26:00.000-07:00

went to group meeting yesterday night.

Lord keep my heart.

Bridal Love,

First Love.

The love burning brightly at first,

and as time pass by..

if we dont keep it,

it fades...

Oh Lord,

i realised, i fear..

the love i have toward You is there,

but its no longer that bright i know.

i start to feel the feelings that i shouldnt rely on.

shy, frustrating and so on...

keep my heart,

always true to You,

never backsliding,

always viewing You,

a heart that is pure,

that sees only You,

a heart that love You,

and treasure only You.

the view isnt that bad.

change the way u view at it if it doesnt seemed to be that good..

the scenery will be nicer=)

My favourite person.=)

2009-06-20T07:30:00.000-07:00

And now, i have realised my favourite person is not any famous person or successful person other than my father.
=)

Pa,
hmm.
suddenly i dont what to say.
i start to have nothing much to say.
good and bad, nothing much.
but ..
today,
i have a strong desire,
that is to be a better person.
yeah,
i hope the desire last.

i am sorry pa,
that i have nothing to pa for father's day.
i have nothing for u to be proud at.
and..
i dont even can greet u happy father's day.

Pa,
i really hope that u r fine.

Pa,
Happy Father's Day.
i love you and..
i miss you.

* we never know what might happen to us.
do appreciate what u have now.
strongly believe,
ur father have done his best to provide u the best environment he could.
never hesitate of the love he have towards u.
he might not be at home as longer as ur mum,
he might not talk to u as frequent as ur mum,
but,
he do care for u,
he do love u.
dont be shy to kiss ur father,
dont be shy to show how much u love him,
because we might lose the chance,
the only chance.

Happy Father's Day.
F A M I L Y.
Father And Mother I love You.

* i cant imagine how my life would be without my sister, evelyn.
although i dont express my feelings to her,
she is always the worm in my stomach.
hey girl~ i do love you too.
well,
if face by face,
i dont think i will tell u all this,
i do hope u will read this,
i know u have try hard for ur studies and hey, i can see, u have done ur best.
congratulation for ur studies.
and there is always something that unexplainable, turn us down.
sometime searching the fact is really tiring.
Life is tough, Stay strong.

smile=)
yeah,
i do agree.
the smile i put on,
the stories behind?
the sorrow within.

well,
dont make life complicated,
dont make another day wasted,
dont make tomorrow become another regret.

smile=)
dream come true when u least expect it to.

s.t.e.a.m.b.o.a.t

2009-06-19T02:14:00.000-07:00

Y E A H !

In another two hours,

i will be enjoying steamboat with ah rah, mel, jelly, t.piaw and ley(not sure).^___^

* Sorry to those who cant make it!
another round yeah=D

by 7am.

2009-06-16T03:56:00.000-07:00

QMJ956
sweat.
well, dont know what happened to mum's car again=_=
mum's friend sent me to school this morning.
i reached school by 7am.
those who reached school surprised as i ..known well as latecomer-_-

yeah.
i was absent yesterday.
around 3 something in the midnight i awaken by dream or something and then i decided to remove the alarm.
( not going to school ).

simply tired=x
as standing whole day with high heels during the photoshoot.

hmm.
yeah,
some of the papers had been returned.
well.

' the only mistake is from which we learn nothing '.
i hope i seriously learn ..my lesson else,
it would be truly a big mistake=(

so far,
i fail all the subjects that had been returned eg Bio, Physics, MODERN MATHS, moral ( 38%, hope after the teacher's meeting there would be a change of marking rate then i 'might' pass ).

well=)
i passed my chemistry!!!
hahah.
nothing to be happy but when it happened to a ba*tard who give no effort,
she should be glad.
well,
if my calculation is right
if the marks that i peek on teacher is right
then
i...
scored 40++?
hahah.
i know,
this is still POOR but well like what i've said,
when this happened on a ba*tard who didnt prepare anything for her test,
she should be thankful that she 'bang' the right answer=)
it sounds irresponsible!( as a student ).

oh well,
my english='(
hmm.
from my post,
u should knew that my english is just 'soso'.
hmm.
paper2 have been returned,
and Mdm Elsie is still marking the essay. ( my essay no hope ).
i scored 46/65 for paper2.
that is still far from enough,
well.
no complain bah.
this might be the subject where i scored the highest among all the subjects.
well. HAIS!

* went to ABSOLUTE to K songs with mud gangs just now.
from 12.30-6pm with STUDENT ID CARD it will be rm10per each and
a can of drink is included ( there is cola, green tea, 100plus, sprite.. ).
WORTH IT ISNT IT?
somewhere near popwave.
i dont know which road is that but not the popwave in petanak.
i K quite lots of songs =x

* the recent me,
dont like bustling with noise and excitement.
to the stage,
i dont feel like going to school-_-

* i plan to quit my tuition,
i know,
my result ...
still tend to quit tuition?
well,
i have think it over and over again,
main reason is that i didnt show any improvement and well, everything is depend on my own
effort and yeah, tuition.. well.speechless.
second, like what eve said, then it would be just waste of money as i didnt take tuition
seriously.
therefore,
i think i should quit tuition and seriously hope i can study well by my own since
tuition ..hmm.

* i start liking chemistry and i hope it will last=)

* i am now waiting eve as straight head to here after the great sotong butter rice@ yew fook ( dinner) .
SEGI.
online-ing, bodoh-ing, dreaming-ing.

* beef cheese egg burger =B
am gonna finish it sooner or later.

till here.
S M I L E!

c a r a m e l

2009-06-14T08:08:00.000-07:00

well.

its..11.09pm now.

tomorrow school reopen,

why am i having mis feeling now.

fear.

i start to feel the unexplainable fear.

i couldnt believe i start to 'fear' this few days.

i dont know what i can say?

i dont know what i should say?

so i better shut uppp!

well,

today went to mbks and coffee bean for photoshoot=)

there are 5 photographers from photoborneo which i have met last photoshoot @ pantai puteri.

and also a wedding photographer, Terry.

i enjoy the photoshoot although i didnt ..erm.show well? pose well( well.i dont even know how to pose=__=)

luckily there are all friendly and Terry is good in posing(hahah, show me the pose the pose pose pose)

* will post up the photos after they have done with the editing stuff.

It may takes around 2weeks.

CANT WAIT TO SEE.....!!hahah!''zhi lian me''=_=

* Thanks thanks thanks for itik for recomment the saloon for eve and me, oh thanks patrick the

hairdresses aka the boss.

* Thanks again to itik and laola for the visit during the photoshoot from the begin until the end.

* Thanks again and again to the photographers for the dinner @ sambal, caramel ice blended @ coffee bean, the 100plus, and also nevertheless, the photoshoot=)

nothing special happened during my holidays,

i wish everything is 'normal' anyway=)

i said,

s m i l e,

i will try=)

teehee=D

2009-06-03T04:55:00.000-07:00

happy with my new blog skin=D

take me hours on it as..
due to my blurness.
i mis-clicked on the arrow page and the html i have done had been removed--
but well,
S M I L E =D
everything is fine now.

i will B A X I A !
in arranging everything when im free.
yeah i know.
im so YEAH free now.
well.
just that,
excusesnotallowed.
lazy~

the day after tomorrow.

2009-05-26T21:58:00.001-07:00

^______^
thinking influence mood.
prevent mood swing~

the day after tomorrow i can sleep till pukeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee out.
but i know.i know
during hols sure cant really sleepTT

a smile can make a big different.
i try...
to smile always=]
smile,
influence oneself,
influence people around.

my english essay paper 1 part b.
i never regret to chose that tittle.

at that moment,
i left around half an hour.

i tell myself,
just write whatever u feel.

and that moment,
i care not the grammars or steps.

im shock that i did that decision.
as..

im avoinding so far and now.
i try to not avoid.

sometimes to avoid is harder than to accept.

*please dont ask.
please dont ask for my paper when teacher returned.

ur concern is appreciated=]

but sorry,
i still me.
me who dont like to..
i dont know.

anyway,
i try to change the way i view thing,
=]

*sonnat 18?( if im not wrong)
love fades away by time.. by environment.
and here,
i chose one way,
that way,
is to,
write them out.
the love will always stay.
now and always.

off.

deading

2009-05-22T20:57:00.000-07:00

if u just had ur breakfast,brunch,lunch,supper,or whatsoever.

get off now as..
i dont wish u to pukeeeeeeeee out.==

ok.
that night, wore the lens i just bought.
i want amie blue which is -so-NOT-obvious but i got the so-YEAH-obvious blue lens.
one sentence, 3words.
I DONT LIKE!

i wore for..
not more than 5times i guessed?

then..
the night mud family treat their lecturer dinner,i wore it.
and after then..
it hurts.
my eyes TT
i dont know what happen.

its...
killing me!

cant even ''open'' eyes?
cant even ''close'' eyes~!

aiks.

its like im crying all the way.
with superb reddish eyes!
sienz

when i came home, directly take off the lens, no relief as what i thought before( i thought everything would be ok after take off the lens)!
but..

my eyes..
cant even ''close''.
words cant describe how much the pain i felt! grr

then..
i took some pictures of my eyes.
to show u all that,
if u dont feel good of the lens just dont even bother to wear it.
just leave it there like what im doing now.
who cares how much i spent for it?
i care==
but well for my eyes sake.

that night..suffering.
i dont even know what time i fall asleep.
what i know is..im sleepy but i jut couldnt close my eyes.

the next day.
morning.
fyi~ n82 econdary camera is superb not clear but still can capture the reddish of my eyes.
this shows my eyes is more reddish in actual.
yeah..my eyes-- swollen till~

a more near one.
hurts!

i wear on the 'cold' eye-bags-thinggy.
i thought i could at least close my eyes and feel better,
but i am worng.
even closing eyes killing me!

then...
i tried hard to ''open'' my eyes.
but still...
killing me!

well.
whatsoever,
let begone be begone.
i will never wear that lens again!
just dont even bother to change the solution.
sienessitism.

man.
ish.

last minute 'preparation' ended up suffering.

i will sleep till i puke out during holidays!

happy mimi's day=]

2009-05-09T21:16:00.000-07:00

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2009-05-09T19:48:00.000-07:00

copy from miss koi.

如果有一天，
你拨我的电话号码，语音告诉你我已经停机。

答应我不可以难过，不可以失落；不可以想我，更加不要记得有这样一个我。

如果有一天，
你的手机不再频繁的响起，请不要等待，不要期盼，更加不要想找到我，只有看到这样的一个你，我才可以放心的离开。

如果有一天，
你的耳边不再有人说烦人，讨厌。不再有人固执的说自己永远是正确的，不再有人粗鲁的对你发脾气。

不再有人和你讨价还价的想多讲几分钟电话，不再有人在挂电话之前吵着要你亲亲和抱抱。这样的一个我消失了，你会难过吗？

如果有一天，

你的短信收件箱里，不再有人可怜兮兮的说距离你回家还有几分几秒，不再有人恶狠狠的说再不和我说话我就揍你拉，不再有人撒娇的说你讨厌说你坏，不再有人在做错事情之后悔恨不已的责备自己不对。

不再有人胡言乱语，不再有人长嘘短叹，不再有人时而温顺的对你言听计从，又突然大呼小喝的对你乱发脾气。

你失去了这样的一个我，会失落吗？

到了那样的一天，我还是希望你有一点点的难过，一点点的失落，一点点的想我，只要有一点点关于我的记忆就好，真的只要一点点就好。

如果有一天，
你打开电脑，我的头像变成了永远的灰色，不要说我不守承诺，是我感觉到累了，倦了，也真的受伤了。

如果有一天，

你的生活中没有了我，
请记住我对你的好，
我的任性，
固执；
我的宽容，
关怀。

我毫不着边际的孩子话，我的疯话，傻话，伤心时候流着泪，无奈时候叹着气说过的话。

可是你要记得，我们虽然在地球的不同角落，但是我们头上顶着同一片蓝天，脚下踏着同一片绿草地，呼吸着一样的空气，或许这里能找到你的味道。

如果有一天，
你的记忆中没有了我，
不要忘记我们在一起的每一分每一秒，
不要忘记我喜欢什么，
讨厌什么，
觉得什么是幸福，
什么是痛苦。

而我无论如何都不会忘记任何一个关于你记忆的片断，
你习惯什么，反感什么。

觉得什么是快乐，什么是悲伤。

感情世界里，
没有公平两个字，
我不会计较这些，
我们在一起,会是我这辈子里最美丽的回忆。

我还要你记得答应过我什么，许诺过我什么，可是我不好，不乖，不守承诺，我没有等到你彻底忘记了，重新幸福起来的时候就离开了；没有陪你走到痛苦结束的时候，没有等你真正快乐起来的时候，就逃开了。

如果有一天，
你的生命中不再有我，
一定不可以记得我的存在，
我的痕迹，
因为我害怕你会失落，
会难过，
会想我，
这一切不是因为你喜欢我，
爱我，
而是习惯了我每天的电话，
每天的留言，
我的胡搅蛮缠，
我对你的依赖。

当一个人的生命中习惯了另一个人存在的时候，即使没有喜欢和爱，他依旧会感到失落，会有点难过，会想他，虽然我是一个喜欢嫉妒，脾气很大，霸道，更加不能容忍我喜欢的人爱着别人的人。但是我依然希望你过的比我好，希望看到你幸福的过着每一天。

如果有一天
你的前世和今生都不再有我，
当原本就不太坚强的我面对这一刻的时候，
我不清楚我会怎么样？

而你依旧是你，你会看到我躲在角落里的苦恼懊悔吗？

会感觉到我无时无刻不陪伴在你的身边吗？

尽管你叹气的时候我不会再去安慰你
难过的时候不会再陪你一起难过，
心碎的时候不会再去陪你一起心碎，
曾经我做的这一切，
你都未曾察觉到，
未曾看到，
你的记忆，
你的生命，
你的世界不再有我的时候，
我更加清楚的这样的时候，

你不会有一点点的难过，
一点点的失落，
一点点的想我，
一点点的关于我的任何记忆。

当这一天到来的时候，
是我真的绝望，
真的心碎，
真的疲倦了。

因为有太多太多的时候，
我都是装，
虽然我总是装作无所谓，
可是我真的不在乎吗？
而你呢？
会在乎我的一切吗？

可是我会很自责，
会恨我自己，
因为我做了一个不守承诺的人。

我答应过你任何时候都不会离开你。

你对我说过，你不知道如果有一天我离开你了，你会怎么样？

我懂，
其实都是我不好，
我不该让你生活中，
生命里，
有我的存在，
我该做一个默默守候你的爱人，
默默承担一切，
偷偷等你，
想你的人。
可是我把一切一切都表现了出来，
你知道了，
清楚了，
了解了，
最终感动了，
可是我却离开了。
今天陌生的，是昨天熟悉的……

sent.

2009-05-09T19:09:00.000-07:00

Life is just like sailing,
We are just like the sailor,
There's no smooth sailing,
Life is with obstacles,
We have to get through obstacles,
To reach our destinatin:)
Dont make life become hard~
Change the way we view things,
What we view will be different.

2009-05-06T02:25:00.000-07:00

skipped class.*absent*
found this photo.
milky~ i love milky~

took this at proaktif tuition centre.

haha

KISS ME not!

i've realised

2009-05-02T09:20:00.000-07:00

you're still the one.

for the others, you are not me so you dont know.

i am still happy.

i try not to be unhappy.

i dont like to rely on feelings as feelings change, in this second might feel sad but the next second? changes.

so.. i am not unhappy =]

*crystalball*

one point + three points

2009-05-01T04:17:00.000-07:00

went to one + three points for lunch buffet.

let the pictures tell everything.

me and pig in the toilet.

the kid behind me==

i enjoy this vege chicken soup=]

there is a station that u can choose what u want, and then the chef will cook it.

mum chose beef noodle.

sausage bun, buttered carrot , ketupat, tanporri fish and PIZZA!

i miss the pizza! NICE

pizza pie, sushi, beef, baked macaroni, pasta of the day =]

the beef is nice!

this is my favourite!!!!

mashmallow!

there is ...three cointaner of mashmalow!!yumm~

and nips..

chocolate cake.

okok=]

cheese cake.

i dont really like it as its not cheesie enough.

peach + fresh cream=]

jelly?

the ice cream is nice!

*scoop* standard-ed!

okay.above is what i ate.

i know i know..

just that little that i had eaten=x

how i hope i was a bulimic so i can vomit out ethg and try on other yummie food.

but.. aiks T.T

here is some of the stations :

as half way i took the pichas.

there is a waitress who came and told me that taking pictures is not allowed.

kies then =[

just simple sushis.

with cucumber.

laola.i didnt try this.

mango gua?

MANGO~~~haha

i SAW STRAWBERRY!

tho i am full~

i take one.

then i swallow it==

da jelly got coconut juice.

very sickening--

mango kah?

kids!!! CANDIESSSSS~~

honeydew=]

mine=]

mexico station?
then...i asked eve to take pic of mine with the stations as..

she said pictures of food is not allowed doesnt mean that me myself cannot take pic of mine?

hahaha

*clever* me=]

this two chefs saw us taking pictures and offered us to take pic with them==

seriosuly! they are the one who wanna take pic with us==

sweat.

one of the chef is foreigner.

i aint that short?

right???haha

ignore *fat* me==

haha

i wanna swim in this pool lah T.T

enjoy my lunch=]

HAPPY STOMACH!

ps: sharing is caring=]

ohya.there is tempura too. prawns and sotong~

hahas

kies. taadas!

someone

2009-04-18T03:22:00.000-07:00

this song once again touched my heart.
went to group meeting over sis jackie's house.
that night we was having 'love feast'.
yummy food=]
yummy words from Lord.
'Fear not'!

there is one of my friend who come and ask me about Lord.
oh Lord.
i pray, i pray that You will abide in him=]
oh Lord!
i know this is Your work!
i wanna back in love with You.
oh Lord!
i have to confess.
i am no longer the one that i first knowing You i know..
the love towards You shouldnt 'lukuwarmness'.
Lord!
abide in me!

Is there someone who's a friend
That I can open to?
A someone who understands
All that I'm going through?
A someone when there's no one
I can always come to?
There is no someone like this One.
There is a someone;
Someone you can open to.
There is a someone;
Someone who will take you through.
There is a someone when there is no one;
There is a someone, a wonderful One.

Is there someone who can care
Through all my hardest times?
A someone always there
Though it may rain or shine?
A someone I can lean on
When the stormy times come?
There is no someone like this One.
There is a someone;
Someone in my hardest times.
There is a someone,
Always there through rain or shine.
There is a someone
When there is no one;
There is a someone, a special One.

Is there someone who will take
Take me just as I am?
A someone who'll not forsake
One I can trust to the end?
A someone who knows me
Yet he still wants me?
There is no someone like this One.
There is a someone
Who will take you as you are.
There is a someone;
He will reach you near or far.
There is a someone;
He's the most lovely One.
Just take this someone, the loveliest One.

Is there someone who can reach
Down to the depths of my being?
A someone who can fix
All of my broken heart strings?
A someone who can love me
When there's no love in me?
There is no someone like this One.
There is a someone
Who can touch your inmost being.
There is a someone;
He can make your heart to sing.
There is a someone,
Love is this precious One.
Just love this someone, the wonderful One.

Christ is this someone
Who can touch your inmost being.
Christ is this someone—
He can make your heart to sing.
Christ is this someone.
Christ is this precious One.
Just love this someone, the wonderful One

http://www.hymnal.net/hymn.php?t=lb&n=69

escape.

2009-04-13T19:19:00.000-07:00

in this time i should be in the cozy classroom.
But am on bed blogging using eve's phone.
This is what get through my mind when alvin and the chipmunks sang 'uptown girl'(alarm)

*first lesson- chemistry. I dont like it because of i never touch it. Nah

*second lesson- physic. Argh.camwhore lesson=X noone listen to what kent liew saying.well, there is still some 'noone' in my class i guessed.

*then ..*evil grins*
Ignore the alarm.
Stop the alarm.

Continue sleeping=X
Aiks.

这个也做不到！(早起)
以后还要做什么大事！

Eve still sleeping.
I guess she choose 'sleep' to for today.
Or maybe the alarm just for her to awake earlier for revision.
They gonna sit for exam soon.In the month of May.
I know u can do it. But without stress ya!

Well.
End.

B A X I A.

2009-04-12T03:36:00.000-07:00

watched 'my girl' (korean drama)
B A X I A!

I've haircut at maurice's place yesterday.
erm.
ITS SHORT.
well.
shorter than before.

and went to mel's place for steamboat after then.

=]

c l o u d s

2009-04-08T05:58:00.000-07:00

rice dumpling

2009-03-24T08:17:00.000-07:00

recently siao rice dumpling.
Just ate two rice dumplings=)
But seriously aint full yet.
Thanks bubut eve.

Well.
My results?
Only bm and bi pass for the moment.
The rest fail.
All science subjects!
Expected.

Its 1120pm but yet 不舍得sleep=_=
Tomorrow.
Again.
Late.
Aik.

Toodles.

朋友

2009-03-23T00:18:00.000-07:00

maybe its right.
我们是朋友.
The answer that i should that i have known so far.
你我*打勾勾*
Fairy tale?
Haha..well.朋友=)
我最后还是选者了快乐=)
快乐是自己的^____^

Everything is sure to pass away,
Everyone is going their own way.
But Lord,
I have You
And
You have me.

happy birthday mimi!

2009-03-22T07:26:00.000-07:00

for mimi=]
i cant afford anything but i know well, what u care is the sincere-lities=]

Dog, Pig, Me and philipbin Ban Ban.
we bought sexxyy pyjamas and revlon for mimi.

mum treat dog pig ban and me lunch=]

mummy,

i seriously thanks you for everything.

i dont think i will still be here without you.

hmm.

i dont want to say so much as i scared i end up ..nothing.

MIMI! I L O V E Y O U!

mimi~~~

2009-03-22T03:45:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Mimi!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU!

will update soon.
when the stupid as*!(u know who you are) back home. siens

sweetest day ever!

2009-03-22T00:45:00.000-07:00

i officialy turned 16years old on 10 march 2009 =]
thanks to all my friends=]
sweet sweetier sweetest 16 =]

thanks mel nai nai tan ning and all for the ''surprise''!
im touched.
i dont really expect all this as the exam is still going.(sigh)

I LOVE CAKE!

let the pictures tell the story=]
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thanks tan ning for light the candles ^_^

me mel tan ning

chocolate cheese cake *slurp*

hahas..blur blur

this year..... well.i didnt even think properly of what wishes i want to make.

so it tooks me loooonnnnngggggggggggggg time.

afif ( pkt, assistant monitor ) : wa.u got so many wishes ha?

me and the cake!

okay== this picture very weird.(aint kissing her nen nen==)

peace ^_^
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okay. picture of that day. *freakingly sweatnessitiessm*

friends.

thanks for all this.

i dont know how to use words to describe how touched i am.

i might have no expression.

i might ..

well.

thanks!

seriously love you all=]

hesitation?who cares.

2009-03-11T00:32:00.000-07:00

will update bout the night at kado,yen's house and ''surprise'' from friends.
soon?
haha
well.
today i sit for moral and biology.
i dont feel like i am from science stream student as i almost leave the whole paper blank.
i never done this before==
sweat
well.
its a 'full-hesitated' question so i am not shock when i ..come to an answer==
friends, please stop the guessing.=] *i am sorry if im the one who start the guessing*
the answer is a NO~

i am not sleepy but tired.
i am not tired but sleepy.
sweat.

today still a surprise day!
lch, hows ur butt?
*shh* haha
i am happy that im not forgotten==

dont hesitate.
hehe=]
the bag they bought for me.
love it*mel chosed one*
i hope it will still in white colour tomorrow=x*u know*

haha==

i brought patrick to school--

nai nai them told me that this one is for me to bring to school and sleep.

*since i always fall asleep during class=x*

yah.

i brought it~

regarding to moo's case.

moo *all the best*

i dont know how to comfort you!

im sorry..

my comment to you is be prepared=x

recently in pinkgu mood==

(pigu in pink)

i will always ^___________^

btw.lch?are u reading my post?

im shock that u got read my blog== since like what u said that i never told u bout i have a blog.

lol

well.

things are always unexpected.

will.

stop the bullsh*t~

taadas.

sweetest day ever=D

2009-03-10T02:52:00.000-07:00

thanks to all my beloved friends=D
its truly a ''surprise''.
i love today=] and tomorrow and so on..
i promise to try to appreciate!

will update a full post soon.
will be going to dinner with mud family and ban ban men=]

``pinkgu(pink colour de pigu)

appreciate today so you wont be regret tomorrow

2009-02-25T02:48:00.002-08:00

well.
we ( me, ley, mel, jelly, lex, leeling ) prepare a small card for louis.
but have not pass it to him.
coz it will be given to him with his birthday cake ( tomorrow coz i was unable to purchase the cake yesterday night ).
with yoyoyo~ chiu's one too =]

AMERICAN CHOCHOLATE CAKESSSSS~~
here i come.

reached maurice's house around 10pm last night for hair cut~
DONT HESITATE!
he have to attend ..(nephew i think)'s birthday dinner so only avaiable on late night.
and i seriously NEED a haircut.
heheh~
i thought we will be taking the stup*d 'personally' POTRAIT today.
dunno when it gonna be?
tommorrow?

well.
imstilllovingshorthair~ lalala``

im here to again.. to express my feelings.

i dunno what's on earth with my mind?
i am lukewarmness.
not hot nor cold.
i have rather myself to be cold than no hot nor cold.

i miss beach.
i want to shout out loud.
cry out all what hidden in my heart!!!!!!!!!!

i miss throwing stones upon the sea nearby my house ?house? in bintulu.
i miss the time when me and my friend april drew 'something' on the sand.
i miss the time when we ( mum and eve and me ) went to summer tea for pearl milk tea, udon mee.
i miss green valley's satays.
i miss farley supermarket.
i miss sing kwang supermarket.
i miss the house opposite chung hua, the claypot mee.
i miss the library ( the dewan suarah actually, keropok and candies ).
i miss st. anthony.
i miss ming onn kindergarten's dinosour, apple, mushroom--
i miss da yi, i miss her kolomee.

as time pass by, i seriously miss the past.
i know that time never be back again.
i didnt appreciate the 'todays' of the past and what i feel not is just regrets.
i try hard to appreciate and stop complaining as i dont want to be regretful tomorrow when i think back of today.
but why i never feel that im in happiness now?
im so much luckier than others who are less fortunate outside there.
and yet nevertheless im still keep on complaining.

i know i should look foward to the future.
not that i can get through all this means my tears wont falls.
i hope i can get through.

im not being emotional.
just that i want to remind all of u, us.
appreciate today so we wont be regret tomorrow.

she never stop worrying me.
she have to keep on make her guess on what im thinking how i feel.
she never stop caring.
she asked me what im thinking when i was on the bed last night.
i keep my brain blank but i dunno why i just couldnt put on smiles.
i answered her nothing and rudely chase her out of the room with my screaming.
i am sorry for that as i dont hope to see she feel sad.

i should stop.

do u know the size ot ur heart?

2009-02-21T01:26:00.000-08:00

thursday night went to sis jackie's house for group meeting.
yaya``
sis cindy and bro stulos went to aus to further their studies.
the Lord's work will never end=]

what if u gain the world but lost the Lord savior?

i am asked by sis jackie that do i know the size of our heart?

i dont know.(ya,tho i learn science bla3)

she said, look at ur fist.

that's it.

that is the size of our heart.

how small it is yet our heart will never be satisfied.

we keep on seeking for enjoyment, but friends, so far, do u get satisfied by the worldy stuff?

me, i dont.

i nver get satisfied for what i have now.

and nevertheless keep on complaining.

sometimes i even feel pity of myself. how ridiculous it is?

at the end.

when i come back to Lord's words.

I AM ALWAYS FULLY SATISFIED.

i dont have to express hard by words or motion.

all i need to, is give myself to Him.

i am always asked by friends, u got this holy meh? and so on.

not that being holy.

Lord wants to recover us.

Lord's economy.

Lord's plan.

not for knowledge but what we need is to enjoy Him, experience Him, be his testimonial.

i am glad that i met bro stulos and sis cindy.

i believe this is Lord's plan.

apart from Lord, i can do of nothing.

i should have no worries as He done everything for me.

What i should do is simply to love Him.

*icansmellofnothingnow* =x

numb look

2009-02-15T22:52:00.000-08:00

not being emo.

i start to have no expression on my face.

no smiles.

dont ask me.

i dunno.

ignore me.

that's it.

btc of beach

2009-01-22T02:43:00.000-08:00

here is two pics which i love love love~~~
took by eichi~(a female photographer)
have fun there that day =]
thanks everyone ( photographers, LAOLA~)
haha

cny is coming soon.
well.
nothing much to me.
seems to be at where also the same.
might stay at kuching.
might go to btu and miri at 'chu 2'(second day of cny)
but.... probably no?
hais.

well.
school ar?
hmm.
loads of homeworks.
i should get my butt off the bed and do my homeworks now! *argh*

n.e.r.v.o.u.s

2009-01-16T09:36:00.000-08:00

went to kado just now after eve em heading to segi to pass up their assignments.

well.

all the best guys for 'the assignments'!=]

well.

will be having photo session tomorrow at damai with eve, shasha and another model (sorry for ...didnt go and know ur name).

they having meeting just now at kado cafe.

there's around 20 PHOTOGRAPHERS!

yap =x TWENTY!

how am i going to face em tomorrow?

not to say tomorrow, i dont even dare to look at em just now.

well.

i aint a good 'model'.

i aint good in posing.

i aint good in ANYTHING =x

i seriously need to get my self of 'lack of confident stage'.

but i just cant ='[

vee ( a photographer of em. eve's friend) sent me some pictures of posers for me to refer.

but ...

hmm.

well.

nothing much to say.

hope verything will be ok tomorrow.

i dont hope i will ruin up their photo session=]

now is 143.

i better get my butt off the floor and change pyjamas and SLEEP!

tomorrow have to follow up eve to segi from 9-12 =x

after their class will directly go damai.

SORRY TEACHERS AND FRIENDS.

I DONT MEAN TO SKIP THE EXTRA CLASS FOR TOMORROW ='[

i.love.beach!

i.dislike.sunlight!

i.dislike.waves.as.im.gonna.become.darker!

hope timomud's advice on the sunblock thing could help me get rid of become 'eib'.

haha.

evon in black='[

i.hope.i.wont.ruin.up.everything!
off.200am=x

n.i.g.h.t.m.a.r.e

2009-01-15T03:53:00.000-08:00

well.
MORNING CLASS =[
every morning need to awake the latest by 6am!
T.T
hais.

well.
im in 4s4.
a lots of ninja-ians =x
well.
mind own business,not that going to share chair with them!

been trying hard to concentrate in class.
i sit with mel.
and we rarely talk when the lesson is going .(gua)

but will talk to jellp pie. ish me!
hmm

well.
here's a MOMOK PIC OF ME .
nightmare for u!=]

bought brown gng contact lens from nana!
thanks nana!
love it!
whoever interested in buying contact lens can view her friendster.

will be going to damai for photoshop of vee and her friends=]
saturday.
sorry teacher=x
dont mean to skip class!
=[
well.
hmnm.
im.always.hungry!
hope ssa and jelly and mel and so on can make it on sunday night for steamboat=]
im sorry,cause of me,havta change the date T.T

stupid hand=x
draw eyeliner till like that ==
well.
changes stay!forever...

off.to.eat.bagua!yesh(im visiting my own house,early visit--)

ending of 2008

2008-12-31T23:41:00.000-08:00

well.
went to boulevard with mel from 7pm to around 1am=x
due to the sickness of going to spring so we ended up went to boulevard.
plus the curiousity of playing the 'aladdin carpet'.
well, i just knew that called 'pirate ship' when leopold aka papa and his friends came.
leopold accompanied us for me n mel's second ride.
yeah.that night i seat for ....3rides?
the shows there is ..erm.. SO SO ?
stop complaining bah!

with her

2008-12-31T23:19:00.000-08:00

went to spring and the ship ..er
we eat eat eat~
fish burger
gummies
donuts*choreo and alien*
marshmallow
..erm.................what else?

then aunt picked us to the ship.
dou..what liao?
i spent 150units there.
which is rm12.
bought thomas and friends activities book for lele. for 100 units which is rm8.
and ABC for xun which cost 50units which is rm4.

i like it~~
i went to the ship before at bintulu.
hehe=]
nice one aunt!thanks!

*ohya*
we saw sis in law,bro,le and xun at spring.
xun saw me then...
CRYYYYYYYYYYY OUT LOUD~~~
that was so ... ==

choreo very yummie=]

nothing much to say

2008-12-30T05:59:00.000-08:00

GEOGRAPHY -> C

Bahasa Malaysia -> B

mathematics -> B

science -> B

sejarah -> B

ekonomi rumah tangga -> B

english -> A

congratz to all my friend who score excelently =D
to those who doesnt score the rank they hoped for.
marks given are fair.
u know well the effort u put.
marks given deserved!

so : nothing much to say.
thanks God bless =D

not forgetting my friends who always help me in studies.
LAOLA!
CHEN JIAN!
DADADA!
and more =)

teachers,
thanks!

mum,
sorry no heals =x
u and eve both kinda happy as u pp know i dont even did anything much for PMR so this kind of results is okie dy.

*mydreamissoture* <-- u'll get what i mean if u read my previous post.
moo know that =x

well.

off.
taadas

here it is=]

2008-12-25T08:24:00.000-08:00

my mood now : frustrating.

eve keep on repeating some words in hakka.

argh!

well.

zhi lian i know ==

but lazy to upload so many pics as it will took me ages!

so editted it just now =]

i know all this gonna hurt ur eyes =X

popwave

boulevard der dessert.

yen have the coupons so we can eat more in cheaper price=]

we ordered : vanilla bean, straw short cake, blackcurrant, mango, kit kat, and cookies and cream .

before went to lok lok we went to bing but then we went off.

haha

the price is toooooooo nice~

we drank liangteh.

good for health what=]

then.... left me eve laola n timomud, yen 4lo her mum, shu horng back home, ivy having her romantic xmas so she only joined for popwave.

we dunno where to go then.....

we went to taman sahabat =x

lol..

really funny when its come to here.

NO PEOPLE AT ALL DER.

got la.

couples couples =x

then when almost reach 12, bi bo bi bo.

police car.

then we still stand there chit chat dont care as what timomud said :

we didnt do anything wrong.

but i didnt bring my ic out T.T

then we dont care.

the police heading toward us.

he asked whether we got saw RELA pass by.

we said nope.

then timomud said : ey.....ni hen shou.

rupanya kawan scout dia.

funny kan.

please : excuse me ya T.T

i am just 'zhi lian' =x

sorry if i hurt ur eyes T.T

eve is still talking her hakka to me T.T

off.

taadas =]

funny day ==''

2008-12-24T23:11:00.000-08:00

well.

will be update tomorrow lidat ( might not=x u know me )

went to popwave, dessert,vogue, bing , lok lok, and taman sahabat ==''

sorry moo didnt manage to join ur party T.T

~~excuses are not allowed~~

pimples do come

2008-12-22T10:14:00.000-08:00

its now 214am.

i just dunno why im still here.

dont wanna say too much.

ps: not trying to be emo.

in front of the laptop's screen do make me feel puke out.

i tell myself not to be in front of the screen this long anymore.

from now on my online time will be like, an hour? ya. an hour!

just now in msn have some conver with aly,ccc,ben yu.

memories will always stay tho e'thing might change.

off.
taadas.

will be going to spring tomorrow with ssa,moo,and maybe pril and kelvin(moo's boy).
i hope i can be awake by 12 !

night.
morning=]

what if you gain the world but lost the Lord saviour!

how are you?

2008-12-22T09:20:00.000-08:00

how are you?

by reading the previous posts of mine.

i found out..

i might change in certain things but the thing that will never change is me and eve.

missing u.

cny means nth to me and eve.

nothing.

exactly nothing.

ps: dad,dont worry me. im really trying now, i really will find out what i truly want and strive hard for it. i dont wanna be the evon i used to be. hangat hangat tahi ayam der evon =']

broke

2008-12-19T07:41:00.000-08:00

O.F.F.I.C.I.A.L.L.Y B.A.N.K.R.U.P.T !!!!!!!!!!!

*iineedjob T.T

i am still complaining

2008-12-15T19:17:00.000-08:00

i said : stop complaining for unhappy stuff.

yet im still complaining.

* have a big quarrel with mum last night*

dada told me that i aint matured yet.

i am pretending i am matured but my inner is superb kiddish.

well.

in certain thing i thought im matured enough and know the way to handle.

but i am definitely wrong.

不够成熟 is what i am.

不够成熟

歌词/lyrics:

我想我还是不够成熟 (for me)

还达不到你的要求 (for mum)

我真的没有想的太多 (for me)

只是怀念你走以后 (for pa)

离开难道真的是解脱 (for both u)

难道真的要事过境迁了以后才懂 (for me)

倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有 (for us)

倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流 (for us)

倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有 ( for us )

真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手

如果有一天 (for pa)

我们有缘在见 (for pa)

你会不会想起

说过的永远

PS: *SHUT UP*

gila-ness

2008-12-15T03:35:00.000-08:00

i am the type of girl

tam chiak =x

lol-ness!

ask my friends around me.jelly em=x

lol--

just now after dinner im thinking what i gonna eat for my supper.

ya.

MASHED POTATOES =]

i dunno?

i just eat eat eat~

i dont care the fattening issues~

i loves the creams on cakes or coffee*coffee bean* <- i ever finish the cream then go ask for cream again =p malu-ness? nah.i dun feel malu ==

if u see me with the face like im wondering something.

lol-ness

stop hesitate.

must bout food*i think so*

maths tuition.

since i reached the classroom.

what in my mind is that what im going to eat after tuition?( that time haven addicted in kueh chap tofu oni,after that everyweek must be kueh chap tofu oni)

that's why.

i failed my maths =[

lol.
moo i know u miss me.
pig-heading kies=[
here is a photo of mine using eve's ph.
took it yesterday.
saturday night didnt sleep well so with doubled eye-lid==

my phone is still in icu.
this morning the people call me in 10 + i thk.
the first call i reject i think coz im sleeping ba==
then i think my voice obvious that im still sleeping loh.
man.
evon only will awake after 11 kies?
the people said that the people at the service centre said that my phone's lcd is with water?
lol-ness
why?
know why?
i bring my ph together with me 24 hours per day even when im pee poo pong==
main point :
its not under waranty.
will try to fix it for me.
but if cant then i need korek money !!!!!!!!
please please please~~ dont make me korek money T.T

taadas.
off to find something to eat=x

like what she said

2008-12-15T00:24:00.002-08:00

* No sign of repentance

yes,no sign of repentance.
it happened again.
he left her crying with bruises..
yet he put the fault on his past he dealt with..
she could do nothing.
exactly nothing
the untmost heartpain is that i realised now it involved the kids.
why
***:look,here is an example..
look me:no such need,i've seen enough..*full stop*

i hate yesterday.maybe today too..
dont ask me why!
*shut up*

i want i want i want

2008-12-14T22:22:00.001-08:00

curi this pichas from googles=x
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L.O.V.E

recently freakingly wanting GUMMIES BEARS!

to friends who try to find for me during their vacation=]

ssa who is now in sg i think=x

jelly who will b e going toKL soon.

thanks

tagged

2008-12-12T04:03:00.000-08:00

by alyssa=]
sorry for the delay alyssa!

8 Facts/Stuff about me.

1. with lotsa pimples wic noone hope to have =[

2. my hair is so horribly terrible T.T

3. i love to eat sunny hill ice cream even when ''auntie'' visiting me =X

5. i have no money T.T

6. hangat hangat tahi ayam.things always undone T.T

7. i dont like winter melon soup *ew

8. i wish time to be rewinded =x

tagging 5 ppl;

moo

ssa

val

eve

lwm aka the noob bully =x

i never felt this way before

2008-12-12T00:21:00.000-08:00

i never felt this way before.
but after then, everyday, every single second.
i feel of the same thing.
i try to avoid.
but just ..
i still hav to face it.
i never take it.
i never put it down as well.

it has been long, i didnt express how i feel.
because the most scary thing is that i dont even know how i feel actually.

i keep on thinking what im thinking.

we stop saying to each other how we feel.
how we miss dad.
u and me know it eve.

sometimes i even try to not think of this or even miss dad,
because i dont wanna cry.
but ..
i can never stop thinking him.

i never expect today will be like today.

i have horribly headache.
before get into sleep till now.
153am im awaken once.
3.56am im awaken till 6.45am.

dad,
how are you?

i can hope of nothing now.

i just hope that u are alright now.
for me, please do take care of urself.

i have mum and eve.
i never dare to think how pitiful u will be to be alone.ALL ALONE.

i dont wanna blame who.
and to the others,
keep ur mouth shut and ur mind.
u arent me.
so u will never know the way i think and feel.
when u dunno something please dont go and make guessing.
as life is unexpected.
people's life, mind of ur own business.

thanks if u just care.
and please simply just to be caring.
and dont ask me or to what what what.
as I NEED NO SYMPHATY.
dont make me feel like im pitiful.
i am not!

* i dunno whats getting to my brain and mind now.
i just type what i feel, tho there is nooone like what i mentioned.

i miss u dad!

i tell myself i will never let my life to ruined up by feelings.
as feelings change.
dont believe ur feeling.
and dont go and love someone who u only simply rely on feelings as feelings change.
i tell myself i will not do that anymore as that only will hurt that person.

be faithful.

im okies=]
dont worry.

lukewarmness

2008-12-11T00:30:00.000-08:00

lukewarmness -

* not hot nor cold.

i dont like this way.
the way u r now.
maybe tired?
maybe not?

i dont like today.

without pinkish *myphone* for more than 24 hours.
it never leave me more than now T.T
my ph used to be with me for 24hours per day.
no matter on bed,to toilet,eating. its with me.
and now declaration :
my phone is in ICU now =[

the people said is cable prob.

and if the centre dont fix it means im gonna korek my own money T.T where m i gonna korek to pay for the medicine for my ph T.T

i seriously dont like today.

maybe tomorrow too.

yesterday as well.

i.never.thought.i.need.u.there.when.cry!

the.only.place.where.i.can.cry.out.loud!

im.okie=]

now or never

2008-12-07T15:39:00.000-08:00

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yah.its now 740am.
friends who do know me as LATECOMER, to school (around 230 reached school, supposed reached at 1245 <- my late-est rate if im not mistaken as i might forgot some days wic even late-er) meet up friends ( ssa, pok, melvin, shirley, jelly, moo, and lotsa lotsa more SERIOUSLY! they know it=X)
.
.
.
.

AND NOW IM AWAKE?
YOU MUST BE KIDDING?
6.55 AWAKEN SOMEMORE?

.
.
.
.

I WISH THAT IM KIDDING TOO...
BUT!!!!
NOPE==

yahT.T
im awaken by DREAM!
a DREAM WHICH IS SO TRUE T.T

the dream goes by~
.
.
.
.
i only remember some part of it.
lol-ness?
start schooling ( maybe form4 gua?)
then i want to sit in front so that can study ( as if lah hoh as u sure will change place der!)
then emily ( goodness.she is a friend of mine.pri classmate.st.anthony=x why u appear in my dream? i dunno? sweat-ness ) ask me to sit with her (she's good in studies). then what go through my mind is that * she's briliant, i can learn lotsa things if i sit with her * and im glad=)
then she is counting her PMR's marks.(well,dream bar, real PMR wont let us count by ourselve der)
she said she got 6A'S and she takes 8 subj.
( im not cursing u emily, in the real one i think u gonna score higher than that so *no offence* yah.and i think u only take 7subj-.-)
and she help me to count ( well,my maths=x)
then she count count count..
i score 1A?
.
.
.
.

AT THAT TIME
im afraid.
im afraid.
im afraid T.T

the dream is so true.
but i believe i might not even can score 1A?

i have to admit that
i dont even have any preparation for PMR.
i dont even study anything what to say to do revision?
i dont even bother to be serious even to the last minute.
i dont even ..
i dont even deserver good result.
and i know that T.T

the fact is that last minute preparation end up suffering. DONT GO AND THINK THAT TIME IS ALWAYS ENOUGH, LAST MINUTE SAP SAP WATER (wic means easy easy,take it easy) der lah!
as regretness.
PMR taught me a huge lesson T.T
last minute preparation ended up suffering T.T

im so scared now...
well.
let c,
my first day
BM
totally RUINED UP.
usually i can score around 70 lidat.( yah.noraini--)
i thought at least i can score a B IN THE REAL PMR.
then....
i am too energetic (nervous=x) then too confident.
im NOT GOOD IN TIME MANAGEMENT.( u know )
and i thought that my time will be just enough.
but im totally wrong.
my time is NOT ENOUGH T.T
with my UGLY ABC wic i think if let me view back, im not gonna get any words of it.
with my ROJAK BM T.T
yah.im DONE with my BM.
some may says : dont worry, marks will be higher than school one usually.
but im sorry to say that I AINT MALAY *no offence* so i wont go and hope for that.
i just know my BM MO NGAM TAI (no eyes see)
paper 1?
even worse kies?
even when usually obly scored 20+ questions correctly.
wic means i can get a B usually is because of paper 2.
how stupid am i thinking that score 5 more marks then can get A coz 75 can get A if im not mistaken.( before PMR)
and now i know..
THAT WILL NOT HAPPEN EVEN a B. T.T

then ..
my BI.
well.
my BI, no need say.
i think will there will be mistakes wic takes more than half sentence of a sentence.
so?
what more?
can be figured out just by reading my blog.
my broken english.
like what mdm.jessica wong said to my whole class.
NO QUALITY!!!!!!
at that second i feel that the word NO QUALITY is the word to describe my english.
i do hope i can have improvement in english.
no excuses, no pain no gain. u have to strive hard for it. i didnt even bother to do any of the exercises, so where can i gain?
homeworks is A MUST MUST TO DO, FRIENDS!

MATHS
dont have the need even to mention bout maths,
my MATHS!
everyone know that my MATHS is my weakness.
sometimes i really angry of myself.
why cant i pass my maths?
har?
ur friends been helping u in maths for so long and what u know is just to seek for helps when u face obstacles in maths? u never even try it by urself first!
a night before maths exam, laola come over to teach me till kinda late T.T and im sorry laola. thanks as well.
what i know is i dont even try what to say try to my best.
so m maths?
speechless.
for those who is interested in knowing how poor is my maths.
in the conversation between sis cindy and laola and maybe me?
22 divided into 6.
confidently i ans 12==
till now i dunno why i ans 12.
and i only realised that im wrong when laola and sis cyndy show shock face=X

geo?
hmm.
not interested in geo at all.
never even take teacher's words seriously when she asked us to read through the notes given.
so?
this one ended up here.
speechless

sej?
history.
thanks chen jian who come to my house during hols to do revision with me and shirley!
even to the last minute u didnt give up us, taught us lotsa thgs and brain wash us at the school halll there.
thanks to shirlyn too who tuitor us free ( science teacher's daughter* tuition der)
with lotsa hesitation when answering each question.
i hope at least a B kies?
though i know..
that might a NO NO T.T
really thanks chen jian.
even in maths he helps up me lotsa but just the main point is on me.

science?
sorry mummy.
i spent ur money..wic around rm500 in tuition and ..
i dont even know how to answer why is the electric cabel extract and expand?(the que smth like this,just that i only figure out what is that when eve told me.she dont even read the que ofcoz then she know bout this.this is common sense and i dunno.I HAVE NO COMMON SENSE AT ALL--)
what to say the rest of the quetions?
*sigh*
that's it.
ended.

ert?
well.
i dont even bother anything thats related with ert kies?
notes?
exercises?
i dont even want to have a look.
even the book, i didnt even touch T.T
eve said rt is the easiet sub and its a bonus to score A.
and bye bye A~~
as my kerja khursus if not mistaken is 30%~
then i have to score 55 questions out of 60 correctly.
thats impossible dy.
seriously.
so BYE~ hais-ness~!

im so afraid now.
tho i know how my result would like,
but i just so scared..

evon.
this post is dedicated for u.
for u to remember that last minute is never enough.
and ur last minute, u didnt even tend to be serious.
please dont repeat the same mistake kies?
so that u wont be regret and feel the way u feel right now again.

p/s: im not being emo. im not just think negatively, im just telling out the truth.

all the best to my friends.
u all deserved good results since u all did prepared for it.

im out of tittle again.
i actually want to blog out bout the pc fair yday.
went to pc fair with laola and eve~
then lotsa pp thr.
now or never is the word i said to laola.
coz very hard to walk.
i said
now or never, now walk, walk fast else never can get out.
bought a webcam which only costs rm15 with 1.3 mega, thanks timomud for leaving it for me.da last piece=)
but infortunately,
me and eve pc noobs~
so ..
we dunno how to set da webcam *settings and so on*
eve bought a fan?lol..cooler pad for this laptop.*her's*

well.
i seriously cant get into back again for now T.T
its now 8.38.

its now 8.55am,
yah using ages to coloured the fonts and size.
this is why only few of my posts got colour der,coz lazy to edit it.
mum come in just now and shock that im stil awaken.
she said?
just now till now didnt sleep back?( i go in her room at 7am)
i said ya.
she said why?
i said by dream.
she said what dream?
i said i dream that i didnt even score any A'S in PMR=x

taadas.
off to bath.
gonna have breakfast outside =]

im okies!

just feel want to

2008-12-05T08:33:00.001-08:00

yah.
here to blog that i suddenly want to LEARN P I A N O!
erm
for some might think wow, its kinda late loh since u're 15 dy?
should said 16 soon==
well, like what eve n LAOLA AKA DOGGIE said
better late than never, well, if keep on thinking its too late then u will never succeed anything that u want to=x
soon i will tell mummy bout this but i scared mum will like ... u hangat hangat tahi ayam( her bm not good nah, as my tkd, hais-ness,I DO MISS TKD,yeah,life with excuses,MISS U SIR VINCENT T.T)

i.want.learn.P I A N O=)

* moo,reach the kl de kandang lembu safely ya=]

i found out KIDS ARE ANNOYING + S2PIG EVE TOO!

how am i gonna live with her since she's having her hols now! i know she gonna kick me at least hours before sleep(even sleep)! BELIEVE ME!

kids.
well, i still have to hold my temper and tell her not to do so, USUALLY IF IS LELE (hmm,couldnt imagine how he will looks like*meiyaquan*)
well.
to be angry at a kid is like SO CHILDISH and yeah,i always angry at kids but I STILL HAVTA PRETEND!
couldnt stand of kids when they keep on saying or asking the same thing NEAR MY EARS!
and...
the thing is the thing I NEED!
my phone--
and thanks for helping my SPENT MY CREDITS=)
and THROWING MY PHONE (altho my phone always drop down but at least is me myself and is accidently) I NEED NOT U TO HELP MY PH GET IN COFFIN KIES?
i still angrying?
no,i dont.
yeah,i am==
well.
i still have to tell her that 'why you behave like this? not pretty le wor..(keep on a-neh-ing and is annoying one,making crying sounds like that)

but she continue.
when i need my ph back to reply sms, she wouldnt let me have the chance T.T
I AM A BIG BULLY (to lele)
because i dont want them to continue their *behaviour*
yah?
they are only kids?
why have to be so serious?
and yah i am.
always==

I JUST COULDNT STAND!

well.
the 'she' i mentioned *istillloveher* as we did take care of her before and she's cute but now she 's ''cute''!
i hope she can get through every obstacles of life for now and in the future time as ...well,her life will be more tougher than us but then as long as she is strong, SHE CAN GO THROUGH!

I HOPE THE NEXT TIME SHE COME BACK,SHE CAN TALK LESS (as if)

* i think she is upset just now because of everyone put their attention on baby girl *chloe* instead on her, plus mum ask her not to be so harsh to chloe when she is trying to put eve's hairband on chloe (padahal chloe is only 6months-- and SHE'S SO TINY--)
but have anything to do with me meh?
as im lying on sofa and watch my movie like im comma then why u have to come to me and bully me T.T i mean my phone?

*improtectingyoumyphone* but u still get hurt T.T

p/s: i know this post is very childish but if u dont let me blog out i think i gonna say this FOR ONE YEAR =x

taadas=]

off to bath. 1256am==

happy=]

2008-11-23T01:52:00.000-08:00

'enjoyment' which cant be felt someotherplace!

today, me and eve do not love our bed.

turn our spirit toward Lord=]

well.

has been quite a long time didnt join Lord's Day Meeting.

and last night eve asked: bon, tomorrow morning go church meeting ya?

me: isit?okies ar..

eve: then we shud sleep earlier..

well.... we didnt manag to sleep anyhow 'earlier'==

H A P P Y!

the WORLD IS TOO TOO COMPLICATED.

ichoosemyownway to not follow the world's steps or stages.

ichoosemyownway to follow the Lord=]

Lord,keep my heart!

the satisfaction u r seeking for so far,doesnt satisfy u at all,isnt it?yayaya!

because it isnt the real ENJOYMENT!

*went to lele's kindy concert.

will be posing 'someotherday'

pictures againswimburne quek quek

2008-11-21T01:13:00.000-08:00

my ages soon=p(tmr then update)lazy

2008-11-05T07:08:00.000-08:00

well,let pictures do the talking=x

im lazy=x

hahas.

that day...er,okloh=)

hehes.

sing sing sing!

but will not be going to popwave.

enter k looks better=D

but that day enter k upgrading da song thggies so we havta go popwave=x

kies.

tatas

dotz dotz dotz day

2008-11-01T07:36:00.000-07:00

today mummy drive me nutz.
but she is my mum.
what can i say?

......
1st. sorry moo coz cant attend bill's bday party.sorry moo's mimi=( sorry moo's didi.

.....
2nd. today i speechless leh.
kinda no pp d in d swimburne carnival fest.
then we all went off earlier.
shud be back at 8pm but we went off earlier around 6 i guessed.
xiao fung (our yellow man,jk la.senior promoter i guessed,formen?),hafis(i sure i mispelled ur name.balloon man.lol,he d one take over d balloon job today=),dealer(a beautiful girl and i forgot her name.ish me),ida(my patner of promoter).gary came a while oni.(he is boss gua).
they quite funny.
they oki d wor.

then start promoting

erm..

there's few plans.
new plans.
digi i like.

super fnf

super sms

super talk

super long live.

mostly i intro super sms.

when u sms reach 5ocents on thay day,the rest of the sms digi to digi will be free of charge.

they are so kinds of customer.

will stop and listen to you and give da respond that they will consider.

some just walk by then no hiew(mmg patut tak juga,im not lengloi or lengzai ba)

some come and ask questions.

some will smile back to u when u r smiling(my mouth kejang lu)

some even give u black face(mmg patut tak juga,is me ba)

etc

well.
lazy le.
tmr nidda reach at 9.
laola pick me coz bro use mum's car.
me n laola want eat ting pek king xiao laopo's laksa.
so i nidda awake around 7?
sweat.

here is my stupid quek pic.

*smth happen todaY.ddd.icried!but.oki.le=)*

thanks moo!

❤ love-not ❤

2008-10-29T23:23:00.000-07:00

well.

today is a oki- not day!
so yah..
today went to moO 's home.
went to interview at samfah book store at sg.maong there

well.
mum bomb me=x

she is the type :

1st minute : agree

2nd minute : brain baru received imformation.

3rd minute : respond start blabla black sheep

last night i asked her that whether is it oki if i go work?
she asked as?at?.
i said book store,sg.maong.
she said where?
i said i dunno.im road freak k?
then she asked why i know there got vacancies..
i said lyn's mum saw it dee.
then she said sui bian.

then today morning.
sorry moo!i didnt put any vibration and ph is in silent mode.
she call me till siao coz she scared i wont be able to awake then will be late for our 1st time interview.
she call me for 69+1 times.
paiseh betul=x

then when i ask mum to wake up.
(lele here as bro go back to jb with sis in law)
i ask her to send me.
she said now?
i said yah.
now!
then she said wait lele.
lele attending little learner school since he was 1 year old.

she start bla-ing.
if the salary is rm300,XIANG DOU BU YONG XIANG(dont even have to think bout it)
rm400 and rm 5oo oso no need think!
i were like.
rm5oo is oki leh.
now then is the 3rd minute!
she responding which is she disagree i work!!!!!grrr~~

on the way to moo's home.
she keep putting out her fireworks.
well,doesnt make my sky looks fantastic!

she said.
see.the petrol deduct deduct...lalalallaa
means u go for nothing nothing~~~

well.
she want me to stay at home d.
she's in her 'gen nian qi'(old age) now.
sometimes its hard to tolerate with her but what to do?
my mum what~
apa pun dia ialah my da ren=x

then i reach moo's house.
she looks sleepy as she actually can sleep back if successfully awake me at 7 but who knos it tooks her bout an hour to wake me up.(yah.i awake by dream d actually.thanks dream=x)
paiseh noh!

then moo's mi went for yoga.
waiting mo's mi.

...
..
.

moo's mi back.
get in car.
go to the samfah.(so kolot eh)

needa wait the tauge back.
then we wait wait...around how long i forgot.
then there is a guy who come sit down in front of us.
start like asking whether how long would we work?
isit until jan?
(not formal one,v easy d)
then,i answered him that i ll work till dec.
actually i mean i can only work for the month of nov.
hope he didnt get the wrong imformation.
about moo.
moo going to kl for 4days in the month of dec..whoots~~
so she asked whether can have offdays or not.
then...he asked where we live?
what school?
we said grss.
he said there is few after pmr students too.
he thought is em the one intro us.
the student name is cheng hua if im not mistaken.

then..
now baru dao the most improtant part.
after we fill up a form.
then he start telling bout the conditions given.
8am-5.30pm.
meals excluded.
RM15 each day.

then i start asking is there break time?
he said yah.an hour.

erm..
well.
frankly speaking,
the condition is not really oki as when i start counting(hehe)
rm15 excluded mum's petrol oil and food gok o,i count 9 hours and half.
an hour for lunch then left 8hours and half.
half hou is for toilet etc..
then an hour is bout rm1.875(ph's calculator).

but like what moo said.
rather at home fa mei.
then...

asked mum pick me up from moo's home.
she...!!!
start bla-iinnggg again.
but this time i dont really answer her back as what she said is right.
my salary per day is exactly for her petrol oil then food then i got nothing left means for nothing.

she didnt even know the conditions dy bla til like what.
if she knew,
means THE END!

all the way back home she BLABLABLA!
then back.
she said:
lalalalblalalalanalfhfiosfbdxjfbruhrueabndfkabno~~~~~
u work with me(she means sweep floor etc i guessed)
i give u rm10 per day~~~~

i didnt answer anything as i know the money we both need to have operation for high blood pressure is not even enuf if we ''work'' together~-.-

then.
i ask comments from eve.

as usual~
her ans always the same:

dunno.
i dont wanna get involved~

as she know my mum well too-.-

then i tell moo my mum seems disagreed.
moo sad=x

well.
as mum's daugther what more i can say?
this time i chose to be silent.

........

cherry just called me up.
she said she has a part-time job.
D I G I

then
send my picha to the siaw siang(a girl) ->dont mistaken as they need picha d.(not bu zheng dan dee)

then she called me up and ask me whether i m alright to work for sat and sun at swimburne from 1pm-8pm if i didnt remember the wrong thing.
i said uh..yah.
then she said she found another promoter dy which mean i cant bring lyn along then i will be whole along T.T
sorry moo!!!

i ask her bout the conditions,she were like...
ar?promoting.
*i were like..err???how to say the pay?(mum need know,she my agent-.-)*

then
she ask me whether it is ok or not for me to go green height tomorrow for some explanations on digi thggy.

i said ok d.
but now i thk,how to tell mum to send me thr,she will bla again for sure=x

aikx..

life ar life!

why need to be so frustrating?

well..

my jobs thggy?

IM BLUR TOO!
bu bu bu bababa bebebe aiks~

ps SORRY MOO!

morning call

2008-10-27T10:01:00.000-07:00

yah.
i haven sleep.
*something*

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then moo ask me view her blog post.

http://baabeeb00.blogspot.com/

i cant copy dao.
do view if u wanna read the story,morning call.

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如果你不爱一个人，请放手，好让别人有机会爱她。
如果你爱的人放弃了你，请放开自己好让自己有机会爱别人 .
有的东西你再喜欢也不会属於你的，
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的，
人生中有许多种爱，但别让爱成为一伤害。
有些缘分是注定要失去的，有些缘分永远都不会有好结果的,
爱一个人不一定要拥有，但拥有一个就一定要好好的去爱他。
男人哭了，是因为他真的爱了；
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了。

爱有多少,付出也要有多少
爱情不是单行道
他/她的好更不是理所当然;
生气时,想想他/她的可爱;
抱怨时,想想他/她的委屈;
冷战时,想想他/她的温柔;
两个都懂得付出,爱才会长久...
毕竟,真心相爱并不容易,不要轻言分别 ...
可以在一起是种很幸福的事情
而幸福是自己争取回来的...
天只会制造机会给我们...
而不是掉幸福给你...
机会要好好争取...
错过了就后悔也来不及...
真心相爱就要珍惜
失去心爱的人是做痛苦的....
在一起就是会经历很多的挫折...
那就是种种的考验....
祝相爱的人永远幸福快乐....!

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hope.faith.love

*DDD*

~~*iheartxu*~~

segi prom night theme-G L A M O R O U S

2008-10-26T18:18:00.000-07:00

well.
venue: sarawak club
time: 7 - ''midnight'

theme: so called ''glamOrous''

well.
This is the first prom night in Evon's life.
the ticket causes my rm55 flies=(
rm50 - from yiyi's redbun.
rm5 - thx eve!!
p/s: my great sponsor for ethg..paiseh eve!!

well.
a day before the prom night eve laura ivy keep on phone to discuss the time management.eve said this is to make sure everything will go smoothly.well,there's always obstacles.

well.
first of all,we accompanied laura to kenyalang to look for her shoes XD
yeah. LAURA KONG AKA DOG WOOF WOOF wearing H I G H H E A L S that night.
listen up!!!HIGH HEALS!!
von pun tidak dare to wear neh-.-
haha
kies
laura bought her shoes at ''fashion girl''
if not mistaken it tooks her RM42=X
i didnt manage to take the shoes's pic.

after that.
we went to parkson.
ivy have her make up there.
if not mistaken is at the christine dior counter.
she's benlai PRETTY BAH=)

*IVY.she nominated as one of the five Prom Queens.*

then.
maurice move house so he cant manage to help eve n ivy n laura to set their hairs.
we were like...grrrr..HOW NOW?
then we keep thk got whr is cheap or not.
1st 1st they wan go JF but then is full as all segi students go there.
then i think of IMPERIAL?
d place where pinka holic mandy 'corn' her hair=p
then.

then we went back to laura house to take bath and dress on.
ivy help me to make up=) thanks yah polar bear=)

then we drop ivy n eve at imperial then me n laura go to mcphee=)
yah.i was late for 30minutes=x as i dy make an appoinment=x

laura dont really like her hair coz its short.
me?no comment.but as long as got cut then okay liao=x
but nyway THANKS MCPHEE.(dont hit me laola.i bet u dun dare=p)

*she's talk on phone that time* hiaks

ivy n eve follow alex's car which mean laola n me no need go and pick them up.
then laola go pick ms.png?i dno d spelling.
well,dont laugh.
their lec tot that i m eve-.-
keep saying iyooooo u not sayang meh cut ur hair.
i were like 'kan my hair ben lai is short one?'
then when off car she keep sayin iyuu shui o eve-.-

then i told laola then laola baru find out that ms.png mistaken i m eve-.-

well.
the dinner ...the food...
YAH.I DIDNT REALLY EAT AS WE KEEP WALK HRE AND THERE TO TAKE PICHAS=X
feel superb regret aa!!!!
haha

*anywhere everyone camwhore*

*this is my fav pic*

*not acting cute la-.- to show u all th 'cop'.can c it?*

*panda eyes@.@*

*zhi zhi lian*

*candid* in the toilet=x

*finally back* 1.22am
*using laola's ph* lovie

*teehees=D*

*GIRLS. chin boon.jenny.huiyen.laura.me.evelyn*

*with milk my bear but then..can c 'it'*

*anyone want to have this ph?natural effect o!wonder whose ho*

*after 'so called' till midnight d dinner we went to D'ranger*

i sing ta bu ai wo..lol-.-

*dexter(jenny's ^^) laola.....u all kno le la d rest*

*i think the theme should change to SIMPLE-.-*

*no.36!hehex=)chicago*

*muax*

ps: lazy upload many so oni upload few o=)

no.36 my ticket picked in the lucky draw n won chicago a bucket chickens.
i din eat.
biao ge eat.
hahas.
that day ben lai want eat sushi but then too many people.then they next day go=)*ps: ll update it soon*

*what's wrong ah?to the guy behind-.-*

*yummies*

*i want this.boulevard*
*dinner at the food court*boulevard coz sushi too many people*-q-ing- mum's NONO.

then eve have call from laura while we having our dinner at the food court.laura and aunt want at sushi.
then me and eve go up see whether is still long Q or not.
but THEN ITS NOT.we kinda pissed off!hehex
then we help laola to Q.
very fast d jiu dy can eat o.

well.
this all.
paiseh lyn=x
haha.
soon to be updated:
sushi king with mum n ah chen.
melvin popwave..
so on..
hehex

cya!^^

11 days LEFT!!PMR!!!

2008-10-01T03:12:00.000-07:00

YEAH.i asked mum to masak ubi kayu then she ans me that she sleep a while then i said i can do it by my own padahal I DUNO-.-
then she say no!ltr u mess up my kitchen.ok then I WAIT then finally.

then laula texxt me that she want bring somethg over.
i say 'green bao' ha?
i said i wont open door.
i owes say so but at last i open and I SAW HER WITH SUNNY HILL AND OREO!!LOVE LOVE LOVE (i mean icecream laula=p)

i cry i laugh i smile IM UGLY=P

mel's house,mel's bro's room.YESH IN PINKISH PURPLISH!

yeah.im fat but im only xl=p

yeah.i love OREO VANILLA!!!!!!!!
thanks laula for bringing it over!!yum(dont jealous yea moo)

yeah.eve n laula tot im siao.YEAH SIAO OREO VANILLA!

yeah.BACK TO THE TITTLE!11 DAYS??????U MUST BE KIDDING ME?!AFTER DEDUCT THE HOURS THE DAYS I USE TO SLEEP LEFT ONLY AROUND 5 DAYS!
WHAT I DID
?
?
?
OF NOTHING EVERYDAY!
G.I.L.A!

well frens,pmr only once in our lifetime,i know u all will do the best!
i hope u all can do well=)
well,me?im speechless.
yes and yesterdays chen jian and shirley come over my house to do sej(siput babi) revision.
chen jian a v good teacher but me a very poor terrible student!
haix
SEJARAH SIPUT BABI!
aaa

well,ALL THE BEST TO WHOEVER GONNA SIT FOR THEIR TEST!
BEST LUCK=)

u.me.past

2008-08-29T09:03:00.000-07:00

this song.the song from me to u.
i know u'll never see this and from last time till now i never tell u how i feel indeed.
im speechless

我受夠了等待你所謂的安排　
wo shou gou le deng dai ni suo wei de an pai
說的未來到底多久才來
shuo de wei lai dao di duo jiu cai lai
總是要來不及才知道我可愛　
zong shi yao lai bu ji cai zhi dao wo ke ai
我想依賴而你卻都不在
wo xiang yi lai er ni que dou bu zai

應該開心的地帶　
ying gai kai xin de di dai
你給的全是空白　
ni gei de quan shi kong bai
一個人假日發呆　
yi ge ren jia ri fa dai
找不到人陪我看海
zhao bu dao ren pei wo kan hai
我在幸福的門外　
wo zai xing fu de men wai
卻一直都進不來　
que yi zhi dou jin bu lai
你累積給的傷害　
ni lei ji gei de shang hai
我是真的很難釋懷
wo shi zhen de hen nan shi huai

終於看開愛回不來　
zhong yu kan kai ai hui bu lai
而你總是太晚明白　
er ni zong shi tai wan ming bai
最後才把話說開　
zui hou cai ba hua shuo kai
哭著求我留下來
ku zhe qiu wo liu xia lai
終於看開愛回不來　
zhong yu kan kai ai hui bu lai
我們面前太多阻礙　
wo men mian qian tai duo zu ai
你的手卻放不開　
ni de shou que fang bu kai
寧願沒出息求我別離開
ning yuan mei chu xi qiu wo bie li kai

你總是要我乖慢慢計劃將來　
ni zong shi yao wo guai man man ji hua jiang lai
我的眼淚卻一直掉下來
wo de yan lei que yi zhi diao xia lai
過去怎麼交代你該給的信賴　
guo qu zen me jiao dai ni gai gei de xin lai
被你親手緩緩推入懸崖
bei ni qin shou huan huan tui ru xuan ya

從我臉上的蒼白　
cong wo lian shang de cang bai
看到記憶慢下來　
kan dao ji yi man xia lai
過去甜蜜在倒帶　
guo qu tian mi zai dao dai
只是感覺已經不在
zhi shi gan jue yi jing bu zai
而我對你的期待　
er wo dui ni de qi dai
被你一次次摔壞　
bei ni yi ci ci shuai huai
已經碎成太多塊　
yi jing sui cheng tai duo kuai
要怎麼拼湊跟重來
yao zen me ping cou gen chong lai

I’ve had enough waiting for your so-called arrangement
The future that you spoke of, just how long will it take
Always have to wait till it’s too late to realize that I’m lovable
I want to depend on you, but you’re not there

The places that are supposed to be happy
All that you gave was nothing
Staring off into space by myself on holidays
Can’t find someone to accompany me to watch the sea
I’m standing outside the door of happiness
But haven’t been able to enter inside
The pain that you have cumulatively inflicted
It’s really hard for me to be released from it
　

I finally realized that love cannot return
And you are always understanding too late
Only in the end do you speak your mind
Crying and begging me to stay
I finally realized that love cannot return
There are too many obstacles in front of us
But your hand cannot let go
You’d rather be shameless, begging me not to leave

You always want me to be obedient, slowly planning the future
But my tears were constantly streaming down
In the past how have you displayed the trust that you were supposed to give
I’ve been slowly pushed off a cliff directly by you

From the paleness of my face
Can see the memories slowing down
The sweetness of the past is rewinding
But the feelings are already not present
And the hopes that I have placed in you
Have been shattered by you time and again
It’s already broken into too many pieces
How can they be put back together and resumed again

s.p.e.e.c.h.l.e.s.s

2008-08-29T08:33:00.000-07:00

as how i expected.
once again.
i just wanna said,once its gone never can return back.
my heart cant lov you anymore because you are the one who broke it.
remember?
dont expect any chances,dont beg me.
now its me beg u,LEAVE ME ALONE!

my saturday

2008-08-23T07:06:00.000-07:00

this afternoon ivy and laura come=)
5pm group meeting at my house.

then sis cindy n xiu shi bro reach.

we start our meeting.

joyful=)

my girl moo straighten her hair@@
haha
shui wor!

i found this and i send to her friendster too.

nice one lei.

stop avoiding

2008-08-17T22:27:00.000-07:00

.i decide to face it rather than avoid the truth.

finally i take up my courage.

i dont make promises but i try to be happy all the time=)

.....guessed this is the e.n.d

song.which.comfort.my.heart

2008-08-16T20:26:00.000-07:00

today wake up then come in eve's room coz ph no bat.(charger in her room)
that's the first thing i will do every morning-
th one and only- check whether there's msg.

i online then.
saw *sth* then i feel kinda down then i keep search for songs, eg wo bu nan guo,wo kai shi dong le etc but now..
suddenly when i press dao *my profile*(friendster) the song on my profile come out.
its kidz prayer.
i found that no songs can let me feel better but Lord's songs!
many of the times i didnt realized that as long as i willing to receive more of Him then i can enjoy the real enjoyment.

yeah,my blogskin back to the previous one.
IM HAPPY WITH NORMAL=)
luckily blogspot got save it=)))

last night i cried when i realized something again.
i cant control my tears from falling down.
i try to control it but the more i try not to the more tears come out.
i can say a word form my throat,even to the throat i feel the pain.
i text moo that time as i hope that mayb i would stop crying if i tell her ,THANKS FOR HER WORDS but my tears uncontrolled falling.
impossible is nothing?
i dont even dare to hope family reunion as i know that will never happen to me.
dont think too much?
not under my control to think it.
i miss him.
i even forget how i used to greet him.
its like a dream even till today i cant accept the fact.
i never thought i need him here when i cry.
mum have do her very best to give me the best i know.
but im sorry mum,i really miss the time when u cook his's favourite curry.He can finish whole pot.BIG ONE.
i scared mum saw me cry as i know she will feel very sad if she know i cry.

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

Her day=)

2008-08-05T09:05:00.000-07:00

today is a crazy day!!!
ey?
why got underline de?
well i dont know how to remove it*?comp idiot bar!!*

first of all.
last night we(mum,eve n me) plan to go eat sushi king but then hoh coz eve paiseh if she eat there as she n laura ben lai cant off from job as their shop i mean charles and keith having sales.

so mum plan to eat at other place such as Chef at home,country court etc..

then Chef at Home no light seems to be didnt sell d..

then we go to another side de house wic sell western food d..

i lazy upload now as i haven bath since back from school AND YEAH I HAVEN BATH I MEAN B A T H !!!!

haha
i mean d food.

me n cherry ordered chicken chop with black pepper sause.
eve n laura eat LAME chop oso with d same sause as me n cherry.
mum eat BEEF oso with same sause..c,chinese prefer hot stuff-.-

then mum ask whether we still want go where after d dinner.
ve say got la,go gia gia.
we ask mum join but she refuse-.-
well,lao ren bar=x

here is the candy stuff we bought at k.fest.
thats one of me n eve's favourite too.
but we ask d taugeh(huhuhahahuhuhoho) to not put peanuts as peanuts hot n causes pimples.elelele,since when so ai mei,mahuan pp nia la us=x
N.I.C.E!

This is how i look like when get back home. H O T K!
here d place we eat.d girl who take order IS PRETTY K?=)
In hock le de toilet.we baru 'warm up' well,at d next update u will get it=p
ei..again this pic???k..d purpose i upload this pic is tell u that D GIRL IS REALLY PRETTY=)I MEAN D TAKE ORDER ONE-.-
UGLY but HAPPY..dunno say tiok what=.= cherry at d back thr..

at k.fest there we stand thr for quite long just to listen what d salesman say bout d mop.
ITS IN PINK K D MOP BUT DIN BUY IT LA.-.-

at bornis while wait eve n laura gt off from work..haha

ask $ from eve to buy this coz laura drink shud say as eat her pearls heading to bornia when find m n cherry. we try on specs in charles and keith while laura curi buy gift for eve.(next update will upload) n eve changing clothes in toilet.
take again coz cherry said her hand goyang just now..haha

she's laura.

she's sincere and everything bout HAPPY=)

How i look lik after hair cut(infront) at maurice's house.again he refuse accept money as he said only in front-.- haiyor,i said i'll treat him icecream next time.
pro lei..changing clothes in car coz straigthly go spring find eve n laura.well,i wear da blue singlet since noon so I DIDNT RUN LIGHT K?
Bornia

_______e n d..mum bla liao as she say go sleep liao go bath liao..

so tata

will update d full version one soon tho my soon ma seems to be v long.

p.s= anonymous?who wor?

lao zhu sheng yik fai lok

2008-08-04T09:34:00.000-07:00

here*tada*

she's old old again liao=x

here i want say to eve:

i got no money to buy anything

i got no special words for u

i got nothing and nothing=x

now she said to me: lin bon,dont hide ur gift,he pik xiu zhi dou dang liang ji mei na me jiu le,bu yong jing de bon,xiao xiao ge bu yong jing zhi yao gui jiu hao=.=

so much pains we have go through,i dont mean to make anyone sad even to myself.
i know ur wishes well.
I HOPE IT MAY COME TRUE!
know what?
if pa is here i do beieve he will cut cakes with us=)

sometimes i choose to not know anything but i feel its ok as i know that one day,altho i dont know when it will be but THAT DAY WILL COME=)

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here it is=x
laura aka D O G ahahahaha=p opzz
she zha zha jiu plan to bring donuts wic eve's favourite sharp at 12 to my house.
she ask me open door mar=.= haha

hre's d picz...(k,im sleepy yet tmr morning tuition--)

her wishes SURE COME TRUE=)

___________________H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y

u old liao=)

love u always eve(uekk)

love from

v o n

Do You Still Believe In Fairytales?

2008-07-07T10:47:00.000-07:00

apa itu apa itu har?

now laura n eve listen apa itu apa itu? IM YOURS BY JASON MRAZ~~ -.-

yeah,its now 1.56am!

yeah, sorry teacher sorry moo !! yeah, i said : i'll sleep earlier and make sure that i'll b going to tuition at 815am.
now i dont really dare to say i will go or not I WILL TRY K!!

oh...i cant blog too long as I WANT SLEEP BADLY! as i awake AT 830AM THIS MORNING I MEAN YESTERDAY-.-

eve help me change my blog skin and so on.
yeah,at links there the what dear sis*uekkk* she type one =x

i will update soon for our *scoops* lovi3lovi3 just now^^

IM

SLEEPPYYYYYYYYYYYY~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT IS NOW 2.02AM

why there is always a W.H.Y

2008-07-03T05:57:00.000-07:00

*blank* now okay.

u the one see them together.

and now..its END?

omg.

i cant accept this.

its just like meteor star, come unexpected gone unexpected!

who knows?

there's a friend of mine n us, black and white too.

dont worry, i know one day rainbow will occur on ur black n white sky and world.

today's rainbow is so nice.

it has been quite long i dont see one.

its so nice till i hope te rainbow will stay there.

i know there will always rainbow after rain.

from T.O.P to B.O.T.T.O.M

2008-07-02T19:17:00.000-07:00

at first, *MUAH* thanks evelyn!!!

yeah.. she suppose to have her flight that morning (i forgot which day liao,lazy go think=x) abeden, she forgot her ic (coz she use it as ruler for her final paper and left it in pencil case) then she gonna sit for the next day de noon flight. it tooks rm 280 away n ehem...haven count tiok d first flight d money o~!

MONEY OK..! IM TALKING BOUT MONEY!!! M.O.N.E.Y

recently im very sensitive to money,i mean that CANNOT WASTE MONEY AS HOW WE LIKE BUT TO THE WAY THAT 'USE MONEY,NO TALK'!!!!

i put A4 paper on the covr of my file,and there's my laogong(shirley lah) n my *what u've spent on* and *how much u've gain* ..

know what LESS IS MORE. the lesser u spent,the more u gonna gain!

ish,back to the topic*im owes out of topic*

EVE BOUGHT ME SOMETHING^^

cap = rm29.90

tee = rm15

diao dai ku = 59.90

jacket^^ = rm59.90

shoes = rm29.90

spec = rm15

that's all.. not much but more than eve. she only bought 2 shirts and high heals. shock yia? hrmn..

i gtg. laopo ask me go sch early acc her, IM LATE-.- now 10.30am

`` z.h.i l.i.a.n - nye -.-

2008-06-20T06:48:00.000-07:00

peace V^^

i know-.- funny ha..blueks=p

* The ocheh (bruise) i just found that yesterday-.-
kinda pain. owes got ey!

i know i know..not nice mar but who cares =p

smiles =)

[[b.l.a.c.k]] and [[w.h.i.t.e]]

2008-06-17T20:04:00.000-07:00

我不难过

2008-06-17T19:47:00.000-07:00

love 我不难过 this song <3!

but da line REALLY SLOW!

i wait for 2 hours smthg and only run for 3 SECONDS!

AND NOW IM HAPPY COZ DA WEBSITE IVY TELL EVE WWW.TUDOU.COM!

AND ITS RUN FAST FAST FAST =)

muah =) happy ^^

da lyrics

--->
----->

又站在你家的门口　我们重复沉默　这样子单方面的守候　还能多久
终于你开口向我诉说她有多溫柔　虽然你还握著我的手　但我已不在你心中

我真的懂　你不是喜新厌旧　是我没有　陪在你身边　当你寂寞时候
別再看著我　说著你爱过　別太伤痛　我不难过　这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流　我也不懂

就让我走　让我开始享受自由　回憶很多　你的影子也会充滿我生活
我並不懦弱　你比谁都懂　虽然寂寞　这会是我　最后的寬容

抱紧我　再抱紧我　这一份感动　请你让我留在胸口
別在说是你的错　爱到了尽头　是非对错　就让它随风
忘了所有　过得比你快活

我真的懂　你不是喜新厌旧　是我没有　陪在你身边　当你寂寞时候
別再看著我　说著你爱过　別太伤痛　我不难过　这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流　我也不懂

不要再说　或許这是最好結果　现在分手　总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
松开你的手　离开你左右　我向前走　这会是我　真正的解脱

who got that song?

if got must 'blue' to me..ahakz
yday i keep asking frens in msn who got.
when i asked hui yean (eve's fren),she say she wont have wo bu nan guo but got sha gua, i were like how do u know the next i going to ash for sha gua???
haha

'blue' to u=D

__`` s2 my fairy tales ^^

2008-06-11T07:24:00.000-07:00

do u know whats __`` my fairy tales?

some may thought? L.O.V.E?

1. my F.A.M.I.L.Y

2. L.O.V.E

3. F.R.I.E.N.D.S

etc...

its all bout my life=)

i hope one day.. i hope i have the chance to call DAD daddy papa~~!!!

i hope one day... i hope i have the chance can ask advices from dad for my studies. dad always learn. he likes to do the puzzle words on the newspaper. he learn everyday.

i miss him! i dunno how to say out the feeling im simply miss u dad!

love?

haha.
im too small and young to talk bout love.
but i havta to be honest that love is just like.... 'very qi miao' de stuff.

dreams come true.
dont try so hard, the best thing come true when u least expect it to.
( i got this words from the gift box i choose for my couz's bday)

friends=)

im glad there is always friends around me.
man cannot live without companion.

n.. i found Lord is always my BEST FRIEND.
when there is times i dont know how to tell out my feeling to my friends by words.
i pray to God that bring away my minds my sadness for the stuff of the WORLD.
and He did!

He always answer my prayer.
believe that friends!

as long as u have faith,u surely can!

u can do of nothing without Lord. u really cant.

last night. when i down, i dunno how to tell my friends, and i know they will give me advices but my worries will be still here. so i pray, i pray to Lord to bring away my worries for the World. i am the kind hardly can cry, when i pray, i did cry.. when tears drop down.. everything gone.worries gone!
n im happy=)

___`` my fairy tales will not end ^^

Lord with me=)

2008-06-08T04:59:00.000-07:00

Im happy to declare this to all of you!

Lord with me, he always with me =) and i believe he is with everyone of u.

there is something i shouldnt be sad of has happened.

firstly, i keep find someone to be my listener but it seems what i need now is noone but Lord.

suddenly, Lord wipe away my hidden tears.

that's TRUE!

i feel the power within comfort me!

i dont really know how to tell u guys but what i want to say is the feeling are so true. very very very true!

i just want to tell him that Lord is with him, dont havta be moody.

im okay with what he sent.

but just i really want him to know with Lord there is really no worries.

i believe everyone of us is just by ourSELF is simply cannot do anything.

But with Lord we CAN.

im not as tough as you think.

if by me mySELF i surely CANT.

but with Lord i CAN!

__`` i dont wanna end up my fairy tales but i got no choice.

2008-06-08T04:10:00.000-07:00

i dont want to end up my fairy tales but i got no choice.

im ok!

smiles=)

for her=)

2008-06-07T03:41:00.000-07:00

for her=) this is april aka apple =p

searched this n edited it then send it to her by mms as gift=)

super 15!!!

2008-06-07T03:39:00.001-07:00

5th of june is my dearest one my best friend april's birthday.

that night we talk on phone till 3am like that.

shock yea?

dont havta... as once she came to kuching.
i went damai with her family.
we can talk talk talk non stop de.
till aunty say 'can sleep liao lo'.

here i want to say.

f.r.i.e.n.d.s.h.i.p

stay when love fall.

distance isnt a matter.

simply want be friend with u but not the 'famous' stuff.

as i still remember, when its primary 4 my ''so call'' friends start to leave me as im not the girl they think is ''famous'' and go and stick wit other girl who they think is ''famous''.

april the one once i ever ''hate'' with my ''so call'' friends.
people think that she is a very annoying girl.
and because i want to stick with my ''so call'' friends i never tend to go and understand april nor want to be her friend at all.

hahahahaha!okay, that time we all are really ''childish'' la!

and then...
april the one be my friend that time.
we once ''enemy'.
and now WE ARE SIMPLY FRIENDS!

we do everything together in class.

we talk.

we sing.

we shout out loud at the beach.

we wrote down the name the one we ''like'' on the sand.

we throw rockz as hard as we could into the sea.

we called to the one we once ''liked'' together.

we copied the lyrics of the songs we like together.

we ate maggie together. (at damai)

we shopping together.

we wrote 'God bless' at the last page of our test papers.

we went to chinese class at school together.

and more..
and more.........

funny right?

we even liked the same person ( childish but C.U.T.E )

She will always listen to me when i say out what had happened.
what things make me gone 'emo'.
so on...

she is a good listener.

im glad that there is always friends by my side when im in need.

for what i know.

being friends together isnt bout the 'popularities'.

it is SIMPLY FRIENDS!

dont make everthing which should be very simple become complicated.

nowadays, why they is so many friends who always get into 'war'?

just because they forgot how friendship should be?

just pure. SIMPLY FRIEND!

nowadays, so many ways u can try to know lotz of friends.

but do they really f.r.i.e.n.d?

im sorry to say this.

just like friendster, omg, so many people/s in friendster right?

its like completing how many there will be in ur friends list.

sometimes.. friendster really f.a.k.e enough!

im sorry to say all of that but its only my opinion.

some may become ur very good friends but some..NOPE RIGHT?

ohya. im gonna to delete my summer_snow2155@hotmail's friendster account and create new one with lettersfrommyheart@yahoo.com for FRIENDster.

its because there is really 'some' which i really dunno in my life.

i know some may say? hey,its just knowing more friends.

smiles =)=) =)

*back to the topic

happy ^^ birthday april!!!!

wish u BEST LUCK in everything.

abide in Lord =)

`my fairy tales

2008-06-05T06:47:00.001-07:00

edit them for ``my fairy tales=)
love 'em!

thursday_ friendship

2008-06-05T06:23:00.000-07:00

yea.
today still whole day stay in house do of nothing.
laura aka D.O.G with ivy aka P.O.L.A.R B.E.A.R today come here for doing some revision with evelyn aka P.I.G!
thaen i online.
i search some nice pictures and edit them.

omg!
just now i received some texts from a friend then things become w.e.i.r.d and even w.e.i.r.d somemore!

its 4054530968
at first i dont get it.
then i keep guess n guess.
omg!
i guessed dao!
people should never think i can get it as i seldom use brain go to think one.
but i dont feel good for guessed it correctly.
i pretend like i cant get it.
he asks me to use brain to think bout it.
i say something like i failed my maths man,im not close with number.
then he say its nothing related with maths at all.

i still pretending.

then he sent : 5477*0968

im using sony ericsson.
for nokia-ians.
u guys will get it in just an blink of eyes.

but why am i so clever this time for guessed it all correctly.

but..
im still pretending.

then he send me

a chinese forward msgs what what boyfren is hold ur hand....etc

i replied.
i have been received that kind of msg so many times dy.cheat pp one la.

he say u still cant get it..use brain to thk
bla3~~~

IM PRETENDING FOR OUR FRIENDSHIP SAKE.
I TREAT U AS FRIEND=)
I RESPECT U AS FRIEND=)
I WILL STILL ASK U FOR HELP IN HOMEWORKS=)

afterall, JUST A FRIEND.

i never think that u will say something like this to me as once i ever thought that u hate me as im the kind of girl who dont care what people think of my behaviour,i can be very rude and mean to everyone in my class.
im ridiculous!!!!
yeah i am!

and..listen up,i hope this must be just a joke.
no matter is joke or what.
we are fren=)
smiles tee hee=D

so...thats my day!

im such a pretender!

so that i can continue this friendship=)

in my mind, u're really just a friend and a brother as u are the one who asks me to join iscf early of this year=)

live on!

I dont wanna end up ``my fairy tales

2008-06-03T06:31:00.000-07:00

在你心中有这样的一个人吗？

你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？

也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。

也许为了顾及家人的意见，你们没有在一起。　

也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。

也许你们相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。

也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已经有了另一个人.

也许你回头太迟，对方已不再等待。

也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起，你们还是保持了朋友的关系。

但是你们心底清楚，对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困难时，你会尽你所能的帮他，不会计较谁又欠了谁。

男女朋友吃醋了，你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。

每个人这辈子，心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为。

一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然发现这样最好。

你宁愿这样关心他，总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。

你宁愿做他的朋友，彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。

特别是这样，你还是知道，他永远会关心你的.

做不成男女朋友，当他那个特别的朋友，有什么不好呢？你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了，常常觉得惋惜，可惜一些本来很好的友情，最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注，表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。

有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好。也是可惜，也是遗憾！但还有没有可能是另一种情况，你可能永远都不甘心只是朋友. . . . .

*do ur heart feel the same feeling i feel?
DO |Y.O.U|?

LettersFromMyHeart

what the pig?

wonder if u get this?

heheh.

weaker.

emotions

im alive.

recently.

recently.

hmm

=)

gratitude=)

keep my heart.

My favourite person.=)

s.t.e.a.m.b.o.a.t

by 7am.

c a r a m e l

teehee=D

the day after tomorrow.

deading

happy mimi's day=]

read.misskoi's blog

sent.

i've realised

one point + three points

someone

escape.

B A X I A.

c l o u d s

rice dumpling

朋友

happy birthday mimi!

mimi~~~

sweetest day ever!

hesitation?who cares.

sweetest day ever=D

appreciate today so you wont be regret tomorrow

do u know the size ot ur heart?

numb look

b*tc* of beach

n.e.r.v.o.u.s

n.i.g.h.t.m.a.r.e

ending of 2008

with her

nothing much to say

here it is=]

funny day ==''

pimples do come

how are you?

broke

i am still complaining

gila-ness

like what she said

i want i want i want

tagged

i never felt this way before

lukewarmness

now or never

just feel want to

happy=]

*pictures again*swimburne quek quek

my ages soon=p(tmr then update)lazy

dotz dotz dotz day

❤ love-not ❤

morning call

segi prom night *theme-G L A M O R O U S*

11 days LEFT!!PMR!!!

u.me.past

s.p.e.e.c.h.l.e.s.s

my saturday

stop avoiding

song.which.comfort.my.heart

Her day=)

lao zhu sheng yik fai lok

Do You Still Believe In Fairytales?

why there is always a W.H.Y

from T.O.P to B.O.T.T.O.M

`` z.h.i l.i.a.n - nye -.-

[[b.l.a.c.k]] and [[w.h.i.t.e]]

我不难过

btc of beach

pictures againswimburne quek quek

segi prom night theme-G L A M O R O U S