what the pig?

no, im not dead YET just way to dead?
named it, HALF WAY DEADING.

so yeah, i ve declared my personal hols since after exam xP
NAHH i wont be back GRSS!

erm let see, er 'fungus' growing on my body? ==
just like what happened to the people around me?

LOL
but anyway somehow i enjoy this 'deading' mode? WHAT THE PIG?@@

and yeah this hols er somehow NO INCOME ?
aka no work =D
wahahahahahahahahahaha my mum do feel happy bout this i guessed?
and me, i feel numb?LOL i feel damn relaxing yet frustrating? >.< moneyyyyyyyyyy ="=" short="=" shopaholic ="=" u ="=">.< gone ="D" d ="D">.<

hmm,
hey i miss lele( my nephew) so much ==
been quite a long time since our last met=(
hmm
xiaogu miss u =(
you are damn naughty but i still love you to choco =D

and yeah,
* love without talking? *
well,
smiley, *smiles* =)
heart gone skittles , i dont get why?
when i listen when i tell?

elmo shoo shoo,
spongebob come come =D

ahah,
this all for the moment,
like what i've said, dont expect any event posts from me, because here is just bout expression of mine ? =P

toodlees =)

wonder if u get this?

heheh.

http://evontyw.blogspot.com

changed,
ended.

=)

weaker.

我不是故意的。
我不想这样的。
I dont wish to be like this..not being emo,or maybe yes. Im avoiding? Or im dealing with myself? I dont wish because of my 'emo-ness',people around me get hurt. I just dont feel like smiling. I just dont feel like talking. i just dont feel anything goes right. I ..m.. Tired. Tired of being a weaker,a looser. I know, i can share with someone or anyone, but i simply chose silence is golden. And i can say no words at all. Afterall, frustrating is what i..undergo.

emotions

# the 21 days.

its sucks when im still counting.
i dont feel like counting anymore, but i will still.

i dont make promises,
and now..
i promise myself this and that.

hell yeah hard pulling off myself from staying in the past but however and whatever i just have to.

the first time,
i coudnt believe that..i lied to myself that that wasnt u.

the second time,
the same venue,
i have to believe in myself i can get out from the past and live my life.
well,
its not as easy as what u thought or.. * easier said than done*
but im seriousoly trying.

if u see me suddenly smile and fake my smile or whatsoever dabian,
please
1. care not me.
2. stop me from smiling.
3. ...

hmm.
i pretended nothing happened,
but hell yeah,
it just happened, couldnt been denied!
its a simple thing and yeah m complicating it.

i know i need time.
but i dont wanna turn this reason into excuse.

i promise myself that HEY, I WILL LIVE MY LIFE AND i seriously wish u all the best and happiness.

i dont blame and have no right to do so.
but please,
be happy always.

its so silly for me to say ..
erm.
the words eg wish u happiness, bless u guys etc.
but well, maybe i might dont fully mean it but at least .. i meant it much little bits.

u have ur life to move on,
so do i.
i can=)

although sometimes i still have to deal with myself.
the tears, emotions and so on...
but hey, i dont feel like being a weaker.

im still learning,
to not be a weaker.


not only me who face this i knew,
but i just never expected that ..this is feelings , emotions, things etc..

well,
cheers!

toodles!

im alive.

hahah!!-__-

i dont feel like saying sorry for not updating hahah==

so no sorry. i dont feel anyhow sorry.

i am much more good from the bads, i am much bit from the goods.

i am counted .. fine.

well,

everything is sure to pass away,

everyone is going their own way.

it doesnt matter whether u can bear to accept it or not,

it just gonna *poof* gone one day.

hey !

im not ElMO~

just say whatever dabian i wanna puke out~

heheh.

people out their,

live ur life!

remember,

u have ur life to live!

ohya!

pay me a visit at the spring this saturday and sunday.

find me for the digi insurance thing, ok?

A N S W E R - T R U T H F U L L Y

(nahh)

1. Do you like anyone?

yes!

2. Do they know it?

might yes might not?

3. Simple or complicated?

can be simple yet..complicated.

IN - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U

4. Bought something:

yeah?food

5. Gotten sick?

nope^^

6. Been hugged?

yes.

7. Felt stupid?

for?yes

8. Talked to an ex

yes

9. Missed someone

miss someone

10. Failed a test

all?grr

11. Danced

no more~ *dead meat* u causing me to recall~ grr

12. Gotten your hair cut?

should i keep?

13. Lied

yes!

U N I Q U E

14. Nervous habits?

yes!(hey kee fung,during oral, i was nervous too and..that is sooo *dead meat*

15. Are you double jointed?

ar?

16. Can you roll your tongue?

i can!

17. Can you raise one eyebrow?

i cant!

18. Can you cross your eyes?

juling? nope!

19. Do you make your bed daily?

no?

20. Do you think you are unique?

i am? hahaha

H A V E - Y O U - E V E R'S

21. Said "I Love you"

yes.

22. Given money to a homeless person

if he os she is homeless, yes.

23. Smoked?

nope

24. Waited all night for a phone call?

stupidly yes and not again

25. Snuck out?

erm...?

26. Sat and looked at the stars?

yeah,in car.

M A N N E R S

27. Do you swear/curse?

not really

28. Do you ever spit?

not anywhere k? i dislike that *ew*

29. You cook your own food?

i 'do'

30. You do your own chores?

not all the time

31. You like beef jerky?

ar ar?

32. You're happy with your life?

why not?

33. You own a dog?

nope, but wish to have one. golden retriever ..that will not poo,pee so on=_=

34. You spend your money wisely?

SERIOUSLY NOT!

35. Do you like to swim?

like but i dont know how to swim. grr

36. When you get bored do you call a friend?

always and thats why i spent aloads..but recently no more

D O - Y O U - P R E F E R'S

37. Flowers or angels?

flowers? and angels? both

38. Gray or black?

black

39. Color or black and white photos?

depends..recently black and white

40. Lust or love?

love

41. Sunrise or sunset?

sunset?

42. M&Ms or Skittles?

M & Ms

43. Staying up late or waking up early?

Staying up late ofcourse==

44.Being hot or cold?

cold!

45. Winter or Fall?

winter~

46. Left or right?

right

47. Having 10 acquaintances or 2 best friends?

acquaintances? best friends..hmm

48. Sunshine or rain?

rainnnn!!!!

M O R E-H A V E-Y O U-E V E R'S

49. Been Dumped?

Yes

50. Stolen money from a friend?

Nope

51. Been in a fist fight?

nope?

52.Snuck out of your house?

Nope

53. Had a crush on a teacher?

Nope

54. Seen someone die?

no ey?

55. Been on an airplane?

Yes

56. Slept all day?

12-15 hours?

57. Missed someone so much it hurt?

yes

58. Fallen asleep during school?

hahah

59. Been lonely?

yeah

60. Cheated in a game?

Yes?

61.Been to the ER?

ha?

62. Been in a car accident?

ya==

63. Had detention?

yeah

64. Missed your first love?

not really,nope.

65. Cried yourself to sleep?

yeah

66. Sung in the shower?

yes

67. Kissed a complete stranger?

Nope

68. Laughed so hard you cried?

yeah

69. Cheated on a bf/gf?

yeah but i have rather chose to keep it away from him than to cheat

70. Regretted hurting someone?

nope?

71. Regretted loving someone?

nope if i do then its not love

nahhh..kee fung! done the tag~ wellll. its LONG!